STRANGE

2010-10-26T07:24:00.002+08:00

PEOPLE JUST CANT SEE ME HAPPY, true enough?

& crying wont solve a thing.. but it gets me through the day =')
goodbye evil world.

your words are empty, i dont mean a thing to you at all.
mistakes are meant to be made and forgiven. i once made mistakes, and till now you still have not forgiven me. i used to be a happy doll, now im broken. no one likes to play with me. my world is so dark den i tend to remember the past. i started to get emotional at times whenever i did anything that reminds me of you. you got me hanging. and now im dead. 31st would be the best day to express everything.. just wait and see /=

2010-10-24T21:47:00.002+08:00

I LOVE YOU, BUT I JUST HATE ALL THE FIGHTS WE HAD =(

im sure you hate it too..no more fights please, im begging you .. :'(
i need your trust just like you need mine. i love you, Mohamad Fadhli.

2010-10-13T22:41:00.002+08:00

PLEASE LEARN TO TREASURE YOUR LOVE ONES

2010-10-11T21:56:00.002+08:00

sudah lah.

sebok je niy dua ekor. haha, nak amek gambar peh susah ! da diam.

Wednesday & thurs saye keje pagy. Friday jamming den lepak pt town, cathay cine. Saturday saye kuar ngn bf ngn family makan den lepak pt town ngn leeza, yan & khai. Sunday saye keje pagy den lepas keje lepak ngn awie, wan & leeza maen pool pt marina. gerek best kecoh fun !

2010-10-04T22:05:00.004+08:00

Pathetic.

yes you. okay random news, i got a job. yay. thanks to nadia ♥
nk tawu mane, pandai pandai ok. kate low profile -.-

i work near my mum's work place. heee, so can go home together. ^^ so yesterday, went out with bf, karaoke & pool @ grandlink. this is our first time playing pool together. like finally he learn -.- surprisingly he beats me. alaaa, saye bagy chance.. hahaa ! pictures @ bf's NEW phone. okay den proceed back to tamp, buy food for family. i bought rojak for my family and chicken hor fun for myself. heeeeeee. sampai umah je sumbat, yum ! hahaha.

recently saye tk bnyak lah amek gambar. niy gambar2 lame saye ss. hmm

first day of work = 3 minutes of talking. great.
tomorrow, collect uniform + injection = scary nk giget jari. k bye.

2010-09-20T21:36:00.010+08:00

DEAD BLOG COMES ALIVE!

fuhh, spider webs everywhere gotta clean this mess up. really apologise readers for privating my blog. lalalala~ i know im missing (MIA) for this past few months. Real reason: syaza LAZYH update blog.. mane tawu ade2 jeh yg suke bace & stalk hidop syaza.. hmm actually me wanna share you some good(not great) news. nk tawu tk nk tawu ape tk?

the good news is, im gonna update my blog more often. hahahahahaa!!!
so yeahh, for now im currently having my school holidays. mendakk la geng. saye nk kuar ! not now but everyday. hahaha, kidding (: just now get to meet bf. i know i met him yesterday, cause its our 14th Monthsary♥ but who say i cannot meet him everyday? haha k diam. met him at wdlands after he ended school and sent him back to tamp. whole journey in the bus kene bully siaa. gerammm! reached tamp bf teman me buy contacts and den home-d. tu je.

oh oh, before going out my baby cousin FARHAN came my house. ahh, so kene layan dier.. layan maha layan sampai penat teros cpat2 kuar umah. hehehehe :P syaza sayang dier bab dier cute. wahaha, k diam. Datang lagy yer.. tapy tkmu hari hari ! syaza sot nanti. hahahaha. and btw, my contacts baru brand logics =( colour: pearl grey.

Dear Readers, i have a job for you.. it would be really nice if you tag at my tagboard cause

my tagboard dah basi sejak.. 25682856299562 jam yg lalu (:

thank you sayangs ♥

2010-07-26T23:03:00.008+08:00

I HATE FRIENDS WHO LOVE TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME !

eyh bodoh dengar sini, aku daaa naek malas !! malas lah, hidop tanpa korang pon cantek lah! cari aku biler korang merana, menderita eyk? pk aku niy ape? py la bbl ngn mak bapak korang! aku da tkde mase ah sia nk layan bende2 giniy. berkawan ngn korang pon tkde gune nyer. hehe. im being so mean right now. im done with this shit. and please tkmu buih ah siah! mulot tu py cuci dulu sblom nk janji. kate je nk buat tapy habuk pon tkde. siak siak. prangai satu2 mcm cb. huhu. mentang2 aku diam2. nk pijak kepale aku jer.. let me suffer myself. cause really, i dont need anyone. my love shit my problem. may i suffer alone. limit2 aku cume bbl lah siah psl love life aku. aku tk mintak ape2 pertolongan pon dari korang. siak siak. i wont talk any more craps about my life to you all (: & FYI aku tk keje ! slame niy aku tolong korang dengan penuh ikhlas tapy ape aku dapat? PEACE !

aku nyer org, aku tk cari ah sape2 tok tengok aku merana/nanges. kental sah !
cume org jer cari aku nk tawu sal hidop aku.. tol tak? (:
nak emo ngan salah orang ! sorry ah.

2010-07-11T16:49:00.004+08:00

UPDATES !

i know i have been not updating my blog. school has started and im still in my holiday mood =(

okayy, school is sucha bore.. yet i have my awesome mates to fill my day :D haha! satu hari pat skola tk kecoh tk sah. love my ite mates! kay lets see, holidays been great. went out alot and spent alot =.= haha, friends have been there to fill my days. and i loved it. i swear, hanging out with your friends is the best cure to forget that 'someone'. hehe ! okay back on track, secretly having a crush on someone. shh ♥

2010-06-23T14:42:00.005+08:00

KAU PERGI BERSAMA NYA =')

dont worry bout me, ill be just fine. i promise. i will, i just need time thats all. really (:
hanya tuhan saja yang tawu. semua di tangan tuhan.
kay, im done with this shit. hees. im happy now. i will be :D

2010-06-22T23:12:00.004+08:00

HEY HO !

okay, just got back from shopping with man (syahirman). hahas, yg dulu org pk dier nk cari aku. kecoh sah. hees, so yeaa kite plan nk shopping nary. so i met him at orchard. rambot da laen! hahaha. we walk walk around to find stuff for 'him'. hahs, jalan situ jalan sini. penat taw. den something happened. check2 duet aku belom masok. esok aru dapat. =.= binget maha binget ! sot maha sot sah syaza! da dapat taw cari baju tok dier bey duet nyer hal. teros man jek lah yg shopping. hahs. suke lah dier :P

k pas tu kite makan pat kfc cathay. man blanje la cey. ^^ pas makan, kite jalan smpai plaza sing. jumpe sedare dier. jalan2, beli ape entah sedap giler! man blanje jgak. hees! den dudak bbl lepak2. tros member nk alek. okay go ! thanks for the treat man, next time syaza blanje man kay. and tkmu emo2 taw, tak bagos. hahaha XD

2010-06-21T20:29:00.003+08:00

NAK TAHU SOMETHING ?!

kay, let me just remember what to say.. hhmm. okay got it!
now, i realised girls nowadays muke jek sweet but prangai mcm cbb! kay maaf, i was like bloghopping this girl's blog, randomly. i find her pictures veh sweet at first, but when i read her blog O.O (mate bukak besar besar) girls nowadays so fanaticcccccccccccccccccc. kene sikit, mengamok habes. maki sini sana. tak sweet la gituh kan. kay, bole pham la kan biler nga marah kite tak pikir. habes, macam2 kluar. yes, i agree. sometimes i did that too in the past. now im starting to control em. kay, im not being too judgemental here. but where are all the sweet girls >.< girls who look so innocent can be so dangerous. gee tak takot ker ? o.o scaryy sah! wonder how guys can control them.. k lah, syaza da start bbl merepek. sape2 yg tak agree, come talk to me k :D peace.

2010-06-21T19:05:00.006+08:00

dahi aku =.=

okay sorry for not updating. ahh, sumpah malas ! im having the worst days of my life, yeah..

but its good to have a circle of friends there to make your day (:

thanks to khai, ahcap mario, arkidd, nana, wan bebek, zahira, yan cine, fiq, adie sufyan, adi idraqi (ex) & more ! they are the ones i went out with & spend time with this past few days and i love them e most. ahh, this week i wanna meet my band mates, nurin, eshia, tyzz and the rest ! ahh, rindu sah =(

so last week let me share some memories i shared.

MONDAY- presentation @ school, den head to town with zahira & met wan bebek, fadhli & friends.

TUESDAY- pack go to family chalet & sleepover.

WEDNESDAY- BBQ and go downtown meet khai watch movie (nightmare on elms street) & play pool with ahcap, arkidd.

THURSDAY- met nana, back to chalet den meet adie sufyan watch movie (karate kid)

FRIDAY- home sweet home.

SATURDAY- kak huda tunang den meet ahcap, arkidd & friends @ town

SUNDAY- met adi idraqi & friend at vivo. watch movie, THE A TEAM.

OH, i just received my pay like just now ! woo, its comes in my mailbox and guess how much i get? 931 bucks :D happy habes ! sok shopping, ape lagy! okay da bye !

2010-06-15T18:16:00.014+08:00

MY LOVE LIFE HAS UPS AND DOWNS.

please guys give me a break. i know people out there cares so much bout me. thanks, it means alot to me. at least i know someone out there still cares ♥ but guys, do understand what im going though. im under a permanent heartbreak. i just need some support and someone to talk to. maybe all my fears and worries will fade away.

To Mohamad Fadhli Bin Mohamad Hasnul,

you have tons of excuses to give for breaking up. i know damn right who i am. you hurt me, thats the fact. and i hurt you too. but that doesnt mean we have to go through this pain. why have you given up on us? yes, i realised you have changed. but what am i here for? im trying my best to change you for the better like how you have changed me. kau tahu yang ku masey sayangkan kamu. remember, when i give up you were there to keep us strong, you were there to keep our relationship alive. but now you gave up and you move on. org ckp kite break mesti patch up alek. hahah, sorry but i wont waste my 11 months of time on someone again. biler seseorang tu sudah tidak cinta, cinta itu tidak akan kembali lagi. Skali lagy syaza ingin mengucapkn terima kasih memberikn cinta ini kepada ku. dont ever repeat your mistakes again. like you said, just move forward (: thanks for leaving me alone in the dark. ive never been so hurt and down like this before in my life. =,(

you say you have no time for me in the past,
and now you gave me the same reason again.
yet you have time for some one else.
you say this is for my own good,
you say you wont wanna hurt me anymore,
you say this is for my happiness.
but you are wrong, i realised my happiness is YOU all along (:
stay happy fadhli, ill will always pray for your happiness. i will. i promise ^^
& yes i miss you.

YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY BABY POLAR BEAR ^.^

2010-06-03T22:18:00.003+08:00

YESTERDAY !
after work at 9pm, khai sent me home naek moto. hehe dier kan da holiday mah :P so yeahh waited for him outside my work place. and everyone in the transport bus saw us (muke paisey). and yes, kecoh per satu keje tady, they thought khai was my boyfriend and they tease me alot. hahah. k diam. so yesterday we dropped at changi and had nasi lemak for dinner. kecohh sah satu hari, rambot kene smabal pat keje bey niy pulak duet kene sambal. sway per! k after dinner, we planed to go changi beach. haha. and we tapau satay and eat there. wahaha, random kn kite? huhu ! smpai changi beach syaza kene giget semot ! baekkkkk. i stepped onto a group huge ants and i freaked out like a mad zombie! prangai mcm pijak api sah . tsk =.= bey kite cari spot. sat down eat satay and look at the stars & aeroplane flewwwwwww (: best best !

and so kite gerak kul 11 lebeh. khai hantar maha hantar siuls. he directly bring his bike and stopped right in front of my lift. whoaaa XD baek eh.
smpai umah mandi teros online jap den TIDO .

once again, thanks khai for the ride :D and thanks for the day !
next plan, universal studios !

2010-06-01T06:46:00.003+08:00

OKAY UPDATE !
yesterday night my ex, danial texted me. weird enough? but yeahh, at least i know he still cares (: okay sumpah syaza rindu dier. hehe. dari dulu taw nk jumpe dier tapy sodeh tkde jodoh. kay im getting so weak work 12 hours every day. i need support and motivation please! now one by one left me without even a goodbye. dear hidzir, no matter where you are remember that im still here thinking about you. thanks for an amazing 4 years 0f friendship. wont forget you ma friend. biler da alek singapore make sure kite jumpe kay. all the best in life ! semoga tuhan sentiase disisi kamuh ^^ amin.

oh guys, HAPPY HOLIDAYS ! but not for me =( im still stuck with work, ending this attachment next week. gahh. sadly, have to go back school and do presentation, etc. stress maha stress syaza ! and sorry to those who have asked me out, my apology. will make it up to you once my holiday starts wee :D denga2 ade family chalet? wee hoo, cant wait to see my cousens, lovely grandparents, hansem uncles & pretty aunties. ^^ okay wanna go siap for work now. tsk =.=

JOM GY UNIVERSAL STUDIOS !

2010-05-29T12:03:00.004+08:00

i dont know why am i acting so strange towards baby. ='(

maybe you realised that i changed. dont you worry baby, im not. your still my sugar.

i love you the most. im sorry for acting so strange towards you boy.

i need time for myself and settle things. hope you understand me bby.

i wanna change for the better.

& for you i will ♥

2010-05-29T11:17:00.005+08:00

OKAY JOM UPDATE !
yesterday, Vesak Day went out to town. niy la si sapau (hidzir) last minute call me tnyer if i free anot. padahal on saturday kite plan nk kuar taw. haha! actually today supposed to go out with bby, but last minute tk jadi cause he have to go kubur. so yeahh, cpat2 siap and rush down to orchard meet hidzir. ndd i wore slippers -.- thanks eh for calling me a minah. met hidzir and we had lunch at bk. talk talk, catch up with stuffs. gee, heard alot of HOTHOT stories from him. =X

after lunch, withdraw money den go shopping ! i tell you, i spent alot. SALE sign was like everywhere! sumpah tk pernah2 syaza spend nearly 200 bucks for like just a day. niy lah dasar shopaholic bile nampak 50% off la, etc. ^^ So yeah Hidzir brought 2 of his friends and we went to every shop in town, k fakee! Heeren, 313, Orchard central, Ion, Far east Plaza. whoaa, Shopping maha Shopping syaza. blueh :P Hidzir bought his shoes at Doc Mart. lawa lawa~ hees, so we had KFC for dinner & ftw hidzir start making stupid jokes and he make me laugh so hard that i didnt get to finish my zinger o.O baekk, after dinner we walk round wisma den slack at taka. kite maen teka teki. sumpah kekek ! we were like laughing like theres no tmrw -.- tsk haha!

we make a move @ 11.20pm.

KAY PICTURES !

2010-05-18T22:12:00.002+08:00

WORK WORK WORK.
monday to friday OT. sape mao layan !
ishh, im veh tired. veryy, but no choice. i wanna pass my attachment.
i wanna go poly. i wanna suceed in life. ahhh, be strong k syaza.
='(

2010-05-17T20:53:00.003+08:00

150510 ♥

marks a veh special day for me and him.

baby, lets start a new. lets start a new page begining with "once upon a time.."

this is our love story. we love, we hate in the end this is our fate ♥

being with you was amazing. times are rough yet we are staying strong.

i struggle, im weak and i do give up. yet i realised how deep im loving you. we're meant to be.

i wanna be your favourite girl. i wanna be back in your arms. i wanna be yours.

my love for you is sincere. boy, i wont let you go. ill be with you till the end.

mohd fadhli, syaza lina loves you.

FADHLINA selamanya ♥

2010-05-17T19:52:00.019+08:00

OH NO, I NEVER HAVE BEEN UPDATING
EVER SINCE.
gee, sorry readers. im busy with work. OT like everyday till 9pm. saper mau layan -.-
i love my weekends.

150510 saturday, met liya and open a new line, starhub @ plaza sing. yay new number ! update yall my new number soon kays? met wan & friends, ahcap, arkidd, nana & friends. surprise ahcap secret recipe cake and bday card ! slack at cineleisure & saw dewi ! take pics wit her and off to tamp. liya went to meet her friends. and thought of nite riding but cancelled =( so sabo-ed ahcap with eggs, whipped cream & coke @ sun plaza park. best best ! haha, kecoh lah. get changed and tonned at void deck near blk 440. haha we saw that biatch. LOL ! k skip, ahcap bought along his lappy and we watched gegebo2. seram kekek uhs. haha, k den me and kidd da setengah mampos. tros kite cab down to mc donalds. wa tk tahan nk kencing, so saaappp sedap ah. k da, den cabbed home. zzz ~

vehh tired you know. eye bags here you come ! -.-

160510, out with bf. finally after nearly two months of not meeting each other, that day means a lot to me and a veh memorable day to remember ♥ trained down to somerset. bought movie tickers (ip man2). had lunch at swensens cathay cineleisure. yum yum~ den proceed to shop ! shop reef slippers, accessories, shades, dress & shirts ^^ i bought for bf mum a purse too ! hee :D 4.30pm proceed to watch movie. awesome shit! then bf send me back home to seng kang despite the rainy weather. awww (: had a great time with bf. really, i love him i swear i do. he make me the happiest person yesterday. huhu, spending time with him was a dream come true.

FADHLINA SELAMANYA ♥

FYI, ME AND BF DELETED OUR TAGGED. JIWE :D

skipped work, bf was veh veh sweet just now he pampered me alot(: i met him & akir at tamp and i bought my new contacts. grey and violet, nice! then window shopping around~ akir left and me and bf had lunch at kfc. bf send me to bus stop. bumped onto hailmi inside the bus. huhu! i love mohd fadhli alot tawuk ! meow meow ♥

2010-04-22T21:06:00.002+08:00

SYAZA SAYANG EIYRA SMALL okeh ?

enjoy the pichas !

2010-04-12T21:27:00.004+08:00

IM BUSY WORKING,
MONDAY TO FRIDAY 9am-6pm.
lunch time 12.45pm-1.30pm.

i hate my job. dont ask. happy schooling guys!
but im here, stuck working =( just shucks. enjoy while you still can.
cause im left there dying, crying for 3 months. boo hoo.
i miss school! i wanna be a student, not a worker.
im so very tired, and there goes my eyebags~

2010-04-01T20:36:00.002+08:00

IM LEAVING MY BLOG DEAD.
im not gonna update for the mean time. sorry guys
smile (:

2010-03-25T20:11:00.008+08:00

EH HI :D

im back for more update! uhmm, i swear i dont know what to post about. whole day stayed at home, doing random things like cooking? -.- and im excited about tmr! k diam. nanti2 aku surprise korang k. heee, pdahal tkde pape sgat lah. lol. erh, okay bored !!! bf tak layan aku.. hmm i think i should end here. lets see, what elseeeeee?..

(still thinking)

ermm, so do tag my tagboard if you love messy hair like i do (:

okay bye!

2010-03-24T23:28:00.010+08:00

WAHH, korang suke eh comment sal kening aku. hehe XD if you are my true friends, you know i wont do that kind of shitty stuffs. eee, tk original langsung! kalo masey tk caye, jumpe syaza otey? (: tkde masalah. hua hua! k diam. So believe it or not, i have been staying at home for 4 freaking days! anda pham? EMPAT HARI BABE ! ive been home sick =( but just now i went out. i went to school for briefing about my IA. and woo, sudah dapat tawu tempat keje! hee and mostly (my ite mates) were in the same company, tu part best! omg omg, excited but not really.. bile part dpt gaji jek yg best! the rest(assignments&presentation), no comments ah! haha, so after school hujan lebat tak terkire. took bus 27 and dropped at hougang (random). went to hgg mall and buy some accessories at chamelon, sumpah random sak aku. hehe! den walk back inter text messaging bf. hes working with his abg sedare, and i thought of meeting him cause hati niy tak sedap, he says he havent eaten since idk? so i took bus 27 back to tamp. semangat kn aku? haha, told ya im willing to do anything for my love ones (: reached tamp, bought 3 mc chickens and a medium coke and meet bf and his abg sedare under void deck ^^ so i waited for them till they finished working. den makan2 den bf fetch me to bus stop. home sweet home ~ amazingly my fever has gone. told ya, bf is my medicine ^^ FREE lagy, tk yah susah2 gy polyclinic lol :P

SORRY GUYS I TYPE LIKE THIS
malay plus english plus jepon langguage.
im lazy to think uh.. im tired. k BYE.

assalamualaikum smue ~

2010-03-22T22:10:00.009+08:00

AHH still not good, my throat is killing me =( and bf was being super nice to me today, he never layan me for the whole day. woo *claps hand* Whole day rest at home cause imma SICK lady. damn i wanna go out but no plans! and im working soon~ cant wait for my new sets of clothes (office lady) hua hua! k sheesh, latest update! i joined twitter!! it is just right below my tagboard you can see it, dyingg~ haha, but ill try my best to keep it alive *wink So readers, do follow me if you already have twitter yes? reason for joining is because i wanna be a follower of (go figure) :P

masai habes~

okay, i havent been onlining since.. a few weeks back. FAKE! syaza tk suke sgat2 online sbab ade olang olang gila campur sot sot. btol tk bedek! not refering to my friends but random people that i dont even know. urghh, pape text syaza kays!

ASSALAMUALAIKUM SMUE

Selamat Malam (:

2010-03-21T21:54:00.011+08:00

IM OFFICIALLY SICK =(

oh cmon' no one likes to get sick k. im having a bad sore throat and a slight fever. grrr. it hurts alot that i lost my voice, shoots! dear bandmates, mcm mane niy? aku da tkde suare. lol kite kai sign language bole? :P heee, okay nuff said. pray for me to get well soon yea? hehe STTM.(syaza tk tawu malu). so, currently eating twisties Duh! Tomato and text messaging bf. im officially missing him too. hes my best medicine k. and oh, i miss all my kaki gereks! sumpah. =(

YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

S.A.N.A (ahcap, nana, arkidd)

ITE MATES (shirley, nisa, yanti, fiqah, zaza, aida, yani, ayue)

Wan bebek, Awie, Mira L, Sasha Isabelle, Eiyra Small, Caca, Eshia, Tyzz, etc

I WANNA MIT YOU GUYS PLEASE!

that is IF im getting well (:

2010-03-20T20:22:00.005+08:00

So yesterday was my Eight Monthsary with BF *double wink

woo, like i said i wasnt expecting anything just spending time with him is good enough (: Met bf at hougang after his school and i bought donuts from donut empire for him and his family. we then bus-ed down to seng kang. had lunch, treat bf bubble tea and yeah i really enjoyed it very much! not a proper celebration but still im glad to meet bf. just wait for the real surprise soon k dear *double wink

so yeah, im happy to spend time with bf yesterday even if its short but im really glad and i thank god for this, really ^^ so headed back home with a huge smile on my face. later that night planned to watch a late night movie with bestie, khai. heee, it couldnt get any better (: somehow bf is super jealous, hua hua! merajok betol dier smlm. heee, so yeahh me and bestie catch the movie of How To Train Your Dragon 3D at downtown ehub, 10pm. Thank god it wasnt raining heavily so bestie fetch me from my house. Naek moto kalo hujan mampos, hua hua. But damn, its freezing cold xiaa. Tu part biler pat express wayy, makk syaza mengigil tk ley tahan =( haha, so parked the bike and off we proceed to cathay. guess how much the tix costs? 13 bucks! but yeahh, still watching it :D cant possibly miss it, cause 3D beb :D

khai start dier nyer jakon-ness. hua hua~ OVERALL MOVIE WAS GREAT! haha, not regretting and worth watching. its sad, beautiful, funny, you name it everything (: love love love it! hehe, and the dragon is freaking adorable~ tee hee! so after movie, kecoh la khai bumped onto his brother and friends den they ajak makan pat geylang. random habes~ but ended up we didnt follow them instead we walk around pasir ris park. fuhh~ naseb see no evil & hear no evil. gee hee :P if you know what i mean.. so nothing much at downtown. so mendakkkkks and decided to proceed home. khai fetch me home. reached my block and guess what he say? "kau pat blakang tido peh?" GAHAHAHA k diam. actually the whole time i was like freezing. ahh, next time should bring sweater or something. brrr. kalo tido best, kn kn? so reached home and zzzzzzzz...

So yeahh, ill update again soon~

assalamualaikum

2010-03-18T20:08:00.009+08:00

GIG UPDATE ON THE 16TH

okay sorry for the late update. gig couldnt be way more awesome sharing stage with RFA and FA. i mean cmon, we share the same fans and supporters. hee, so who were there at black hole? like any other gig that i went, semue aku knal la xia! lmfao kn? =.=" bobo, gavin, hilman, iqbal, and some random friends from tagged, ramai pah tegor aku. and at the end of the gig, thanks to bobo everyone has my number. tsk! overall, it was great! cume syaza msey malu2. people say i have to interact more with the crowd, WHICH i think i cant. haha okay, will try work it out k. someone expecting more in the next gig. gahaha, okay diam. i had so much funn despite kana sabo by gavin and bobo in the mosh pit. kau tawu, dorang tolak aku msok dpan2. grrr! takpe2, nanti2 korang kene ah! haha. so yeahh, tiring day. a day i will never forget (: made so many friends and met my old friends. heee :DD

PICTURES ON FACEBOOK !

17th MARCH out to town with bf ♥

so bf wasnt schooling and i asked him out. thanks to his mum again for letting him out to accompany me shopping (: was super happy, cause its been so long since we had a date together, going out and spending time together. ahh, im so gladd(: hee, so met bf under my block and we proceed to town. it was like around 11am. haha, siang kn? i know :P first stop, plaza sing. walk around, den we headed somerset. tee hee, window shopped. me and bf planning to buy a lot of stuffs the next time we went there again. gee hee, now i got a random idea what to buy for him for our upcoming monthsary :P aye, afterwhich we train-ed down to bugis and bf bought a bag. den we had lunch together. tee hee, from bugis we bus-ed down to pasir ris. thought of playing bowling and yeahh you guessed it. it was packed! grrr. dari jaoh2 smpai bey packed. grr. so plan B, we play archade(bad idea). i dont know what went wrong. we challenged other players (bdk2 cinoneh) racing. and i came in first den suddenly bf's mood changed =( he put all his anger towards me. haishh. tkpe ah! dont wanna talk on about it.

anyway, despite what happened at the end, i look on the bright side before that, which i love spending time with him the whole day. gee, i appreciate it alot taw baby. i know you not in the mood or mayb you are just tired. i can count how many times you yawn in front of me cey, hehe! i love him so much lah! no words could express how deep im in love with you baby. ehehe, you never fail to make me feel happier being with you. sayang kau oi! ♥

FADHLINA ♥

2010-03-15T20:06:00.007+08:00

ALL I WANT IS WHAT IS MINE GIG TOMORROW !
can you believe it?! geez, i still cant. im freaking out! hell yeaah, heard many were coming and like no other performance, im nervous like shitx. ya allah. =( i scared of messing up. and what to wear tmrw? lol okay sheesh! now now, i should focus back to the songs. okay update again later! those who coming tmrw do text me asap! wish me and my band luck yea?

BLACK HOLE

7 bucks at Door

6pm-9pm. see ya :D

2010-03-13T23:52:00.005+08:00

BAEKKKKK, blog mati =.=

okay lets update! in case you guys dont know, exams is officially over! ape lagy, enjoy :D but not yet, still have to stress over upcoming gig on the 16th. gagaga, had jamming on friday and ill rate 2/5. geez, we need a hell lot of improvement. lol. but im sure we can do it! i believe in my band :D heee, so many things happened. im in need of oxygen. gahh, me and bf had so many random fights but we are still going on strong! hua hua, i love to pick up a fight with him. love it but at the same time hate it :P idk why. to me, it brings us even closer. agree? (: i still love you k mr polar bear? hehe, okay diam. now now, im in need of cash!! =( major wish list,

SHOPPING!

k i can feel it.. somethings angry. somethings tell me to go to the kitchen now.

lol, k i think its my tummy. im hungry =.= okay den, ill update again soon!

selamat malam,

ASSALAMUALAIKUM SMUE(:

2010-03-11T17:31:00.013+08:00

HANYA SEBUAH CERITA...

Setiap insan yang dilahirkan di muka bumi ini baik yang miskin ataupun yang kaya, jahat ataupun tidak, setiap individu di dunia akan menghembuskan nafas terakhir dan akan pulang kembali pada yang Esa. Diriku seseorang yang dilahirkan sempurna dari rahim ibuku seperti kebanyakkan bayi-bayi yang lain. Aku tidak ketahui apa-apapun mengenai agama Islam sejakku dilahirkan sehingga diriku sudah baligh.

Namun, tuhan telah menemukanku dengan seseorang jejaka yang dilahirkan seseorang insan yang memeluk agama Islam sejakku berusia hanya tiga tahun sahaja. Hari semakin hari, diriku melihatnya membuat kerja-kerja beribadah, taati kepada yang Maha Esa. Hari bertukar kepada bulan dan bulan ke tahun-tahunan, dari saatku dan dia hanya cuma rakan biasa sehingga ke suka menyukai, sayang menyayangi dan terakhir sekali cinta menyintai. Namun, diriku rasa berdosa kerana diriku merasai atas diriku, kekasihku tergodai atas percintaanku kepadanya sehingga dirinya lalai dan mengabaikan tanggungjawabnya sebagai seorang Islam.

Dialah jejaka pertama yang menyayangi diriku seperti aku, menerimaku sebagai teman wanitanya walaupun diriku sungguh tidak berlayak kepadanya kerana dialah seseorang yang kacak, lagi pemurah hati. Dialah yangku memberi kegadisanku. Tergamam, sedih, kesakitan dan rasa kasih sayang; inilah semua yangku rasai pada saat saat itu. Diriku tidak dapat maafi kesilapanku kerana atas diriku, hari semakin hari, kekasihku terbawa jauh dari illahi. Dari seorang insan yang selalu taati kepada yang Esa seperti mana dia taati kepada dua orang tuanya sehingga kini dia berdosa kerana membuat sesuatu yang tuhan melarang apatah lagi seseorang yang tidak memeluk agama Islam.

Namunku rasa terhutang budi dan bukan itu sahaja, pada haribulan dua-puluh tiga bulan Mac, ku mendengar laungan azan di Masjid Sultan,ketika diriku dan dia sedang makan tengahari di sebuah gerai berdekatan disana. Laugan azan itu membuat hatiku rasa sejuk dan terharu, niatku untuk memeluk agama Islam keranaku ingin bersamaan dengan dia sehingga timang anak cucu lagi kerana pintu hatiku sudah terbuka kepada illahi. Malam itulah jugaku dan dia berubah kepada insan yang amat taati kepada yang esa dan sebulan kemudian, diriku memeluk agama Islam.

Hidupku mula berubah sejakku memeluk agama Islam, dirik ditimpa banyak dugaan dan rintangan sehingga ku dilanda koma dan diriku kehilangan kekasihku yang amatku cintai buat selama-lamanya akibat sebuah kemalangan ditimpa atas kita.
Dari saat itu, diriku menjadi lemah bagaikan bumi telah runtuh di tapak kakikiu. Diriku juga menerima banyak kesakitan dan baharu setahun lepas, ku dapati diriku hanya ada setahun untuk hidup lagi keranku mempunyai sebuah penyakit akibat kemalanganku bersamaan si Allayarham. Dirik menerima dugaan ini seperti balasan daripada tuhan kerana telah menjauhi Allahyarham daripadanya selama lima tahunku bersamaan dengannya sehingga diriku memeluk agama Islam.

Diriku rela berseksa menerima balasan dan dugaan ini. Selepas percintaanku dengan Allahyarham, ku tidak menyintai sesiapa pun hanya rasai sayang sahaja.
Namun, dalam masa dua bulan lalu, pintu hatiku telah terbuka. Seseorangku tidak kenali ibarat seperti insan baru sahaja dilahirkan di dunia ini, tidak mengetahui apa-apapun. Itulahku rasai. Namun, pertama kali mataku memandang wajahnya serta matanya, hatiku berasa berlainan. Hairan. Itulah rasanyaku pada sesaat itu.

Pergaulanku dengannya sungguh mesra walapun ia pertama kaliku bertemu kepadanya. Keesokkan harinya, kejadian sungguhku tidak mengyangka berlaku pada diriku. Namun, aneh. Selapas hari itu, hari semakin hariku rasai suka menyukai hingga sayang menyayangi dan cinta menyintai.

Dalam masa yang begitu singkatku menyintai seseorang yang pemurah hatinya walaupun dia tidak mempunyai latar belakang yang begitu sempurna. Diriku menyayangi dan cintai atas dirinya bukan kerana wajah, harta, duit atau apa-apapun. Semuanya atas cinta. Cintaku padanya ibarat angin, ku tidak dapat melihatnya namunku dapat merasainya. Namun, kini semakin hari masanya sudah datang untukku menangappinya, ku sering bermimpiku akan kembali kepada Allayarham. Namun, diriku kini hanya menyayangi dan cintai hanya satu dihati, Muhammad Fadli. Aku tidak mempunyai semangat untuk meninggalkannya kerana diriku amat sayangi dan cintainya.

Namun, sayang, diriku ingin mendahulukan dan menyusun sepuluh jariku dan berminta maaf dahulu jikalauku mengungkir janjiku untuk senantiasa bersamaan denganmu. Dan diriku ingin melihatmu bahagia jikalau diriku tiada.Aku berharap agar tuhan akan membuka matamu dan pintu hatimu untuk mencari kekasihmu selepas aku dan terutama sekali ke jalan yang benar. Diriku tidak pernah menyesali cintaimu. Namun, ku bersyukur dan berterima kasih kepadaNya atas kehadiranmu pada diriku. Amin ya’rabbal alamin….

"tears fell uncontrollably as i read this. it touched my heart deeply. surprising isnt it?"

2010-03-09T19:36:00.002+08:00

totally in love with this song (:

currently studying for tmrw's wim paper and had a real hard time on memorizing. weakness! otak niy mcm nk pecah! urghh, okay back to revision. update later guys!

2010-03-09T12:35:00.004+08:00

Dying Memories.

you say i that changed, i change because you change. i want the old you back. i want the good times we spent together. we used to be super close in the past that i still remember i called you my best friend. your my laughter and happiness. now everythings different, we're like in two different world. you put me aside and treat me like i never exist in your life. what are you? i dont know you anymore. lets just pretend that it is just a dream. what friends are for? heeh, for someone you can treasure forever, not this =(

2010-03-08T22:39:00.005+08:00

DEAR READERS,
I know some of you might be asking why id private my blog,
main reason is, im just being a LAZY ass to update.

i have been MIA-ing with some of my friends. wanna apologised for that. so many major things happened currently in my life =( i swear i hate 2010. and guess who has always been there for me? ma bby fadhli of course (: he pick me up when i fell. he prove me things which i thought only miracle can happen. he brings the best out of me, and that is why i still love him (L). So had my fdm exam just now and i manage to do it ! alhamdulilah, syukur amin. hehe! :D so yeahh, i took so much of my time memorising everything that we learnt. unfortunately, some didnt came out during the test *sedeh bulu* but i have confidence of passing my Fdm ^^ hehe! okay, 2 more to go~ den holidays! yay! :P

I will pray each day for you to get well soon big brother, stay strong (:

SUMMARY OF MY PAST WEEKS / DAYS

- Out with Eiyra small, Caca, etc.

- Mira's birthday celebration

- Gig at RP & sheesha with nurin, sue, shahrin & friend

- Hang out with eshia, tyzz and friends

- Study with Khai bestie

- Fetch BF to school and slack with his mates

owe tons and tons of pictures, gosh im so lazy to upload em =(

2010-02-27T00:18:00.003+08:00

sot siak otak, mcm nk pecah!

exams nk dekat, like next next monday ajek. bey bnyak org ajak syaza kuar ngok wayang la, chalet la, jamming la. pls uh, aku tawu la korang kn da holiday. pham2 la syaza skrg ngh exam. sorry my dear friends, im just so fcuked up with my upcoming plans. its not that i dont want to attend the chalet. and about the 16th gig, syaza admit syaza blom BLAJA pon satu lagu. i need to study for my exams. and please dont blame me if i never study my songs, cause in the first place syaza mmg tk nk pon ade gig on the 16th. and fyi, on the 16th is my ite mates outing. clash la! and nnti smue benci syaza psl niy. syaza paitao la, ini la itu la.

AND PLEASE UH PK, SEMUA NIY GUNEKAN DUET !

syaza tak keje, expect syaza korek duet dary mane yer? kwk. _l_

2010-02-24T21:32:00.003+08:00

TAKE NOTE !

syaza nk smue org tawu, especially arkidd, ahcap, nana, sasha, and sape2 yg nk masok campor everything dah settled k. NO ONE is finding me. dont have to worry bout me anymore aye. im fine. and girl, try to think about what you did you can cause someones life away. pk uh girl, this is too dangerous. for the mean time, ill be deleting my tagboard. try to think k girl what have you done this time. final warning. if this keeps going on, im sorry you will ended up with your own. please, change for the better.

2010-02-21T14:01:00.007+08:00

sorry for the late update, so anyways continue from my previous post..

TUESDAY

out with this sweet girlfriend of mine, EIYRA SMALL.

awhh, syaza rindu dier banget tawuk! heee, ohoh iiqal was there too.

and den we had sheesha with caca and her friend. had so much funn ^^

thanks again for the day sweets! ilyvm tawuk, jumpe lagyk k! sygg eiyra ^^

WEDNESDAY

school, nothing much.

THURSDAY

nothing much too.

FRIDAY

sheesha wit FIQAH and ZAZA ^^

afterwhich had starbucks, all thanks to ZAZA. heee :D

wow, i must say i enjoyed myself that day. you know i know right gfs? heee :D

anyway, next friday lagy? set? huahua~

dorang kecohhhh uhs! whole day laugh non-stop, hee!

i love my gfs alot alot^^

thanks again for the day babes!

SATURDAY (yesterday)

LATE BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION OF ARKIDD

looks whos afraid of water. huahuaa! :P okay diam.

ill update again soon more about yesterday later. huhu!

2010-02-17T18:57:00.007+08:00

IM BACK FOR MORE UPDATES !

hello readers, like i said i was in hiatus, but im back now! for my lunar new year holidays, i get to spent my time at armada & costa sands chalet resort @ downtown east with family(mum's side). get to meet ma cousins which i miss terribly. so on friday, get to mit bf for a while after school. den family had already check in. rushed home, packed and proceed to e chalet. watched midnight movie with cousins, PERCY JACKSON .. loved it! hot hot actor, wooo i like! :D

next day (saturday),

i went out to meet S.A.N.A ! waduhh, rinduu sama mereka! oh, amir joined too. so yeaah, meet them at downtown and we proceed to e-hub to play pool. kcian nana kene kcao rabak. huhu, so after pool i have to go take my cookie cake at town, nana proceed home, the rest wanna go bugis, gee cpat seyh kn? tkpe2 will be looking forward for next outing k guys^^ so me, arkidd, ahcap & amir took train from psir ris. lalala, i dropped at somerset. and walked to paragon. met nisa & ayue at famous amos. and waited for my cookie cake. while waiting, i toured around town alone. lol most shops were closed =.= so den its ready! and while walking back, bumped onto ahcap, arkidd and amir again! hua hua~ had lunch at ljs and den train-ed to tamp. i dropped at tamp and bus-ed down to bf's place. met him and we exchanged our advanced vday gifts. wooo :DD although we cant spent time togeda but im glad enuff that i get to mit him and pass him my gift (: i love hym like no other.

so afterwhich, i bus-ed back to my family chalet. kene lecture rabak. =(

haiz, not purposely la cmon. give me a break. k skip, bbq at night and slept in early.

the following day (sunday),

pack up and stuffs and proceed to the next chalet at costa sands resort. my family booked again.

lol? so 3pm check in, and me and couz spent our time bowling & play pool, etc.

so after check in some left to wild2 wet and me play rock band wii at e chalet. kecohh! lalalala~

whole day at chalet, eat & bbq non stop. syaza can grow fat! (tu part best) hua hua~

next morning (monday),

woke up early2, one by one left home. left a few. so boringggg~ id proceed home and put my stuffs, and met my bandmates back at downtown. had band meeting and i wasnt even prepared. lol, sorry yeah guys? i still havent settled yet, once i got my song i will quickly update you guys. promise (: so after band meeting, had lunch with wan and hailmi at warung. den we had a random idea to watch movie. hua hua~ check2 pat downtown was packed. so we randomly decided to go town. crazy, i know! but yeahh, we train-ed down to dhoby ghaut and proceed to cathay, and just realised i never broght my NEBO card. lmfao right? so we head to plaza sing to check out a shop and it was closed =.= like duhh. at last we train-ed to seng kang cause hailmi wanna but FA. you guess it, it was closed. so everyone head home. no ones at home, and so onlined till idk when. chat with sasha and random people. huahua~

next day, (tuesday)
update soon! ~

2010-02-13T11:49:00.001+08:00

HIATUS TILL NEXT WEEK ~

currently at family chalet @ downtown.
nk mit, text me! hoho (:

happy holidays! ^^V

2010-02-10T19:22:00.008+08:00

okay, im back for more updates. i did went to school just now, nyet! today bf also finally went back to school. (super glad) i just love schooooool! hua hua, so anyways in school i study more on MP cause tmrw test! theres two tests, practical & theory. geeez, wish me luck guys~

so yeaa, see the picture above.. i know most of you know him.

sape tk knal niy 'mr somebody', shafiran aka LIONHEAD. hua hua!

so yeahh, si giler niy add syaza pat fb and tagged. haha, omgomg its been like so long longgg syaza tk jumpe dier! last time (sec sch days) we used to slack at hgg and play pool, etc. good times~ den suddenly lost contact. den denga2 dier masok poly. lol pandai peh budak! heeee, syaza jealous :P k den we started contacting each other back, msn den exchange numbers. lmfao! so last night and this morning he texted me, kecohhh. one day dier ajak syaza blaja same2. kay best! tu part bole potong rambot dier. hua hua (syaza evil) k diam. huhu, see you soon k giler! :P

fyi, syaza sayang banget sama teman istimewa syaza niyh!

huhu ^^

2010-02-09T18:32:00.008+08:00

UPDATES !

i got a huge huge conflict with bf last night. lol. but everythings okay now (: no school for me today, so just rot at home study for my test and text messaging bf. so yeahh, so many things occuring in my current life, i have to say i hate 2010. not my year after all. syaza berharap sesiapa yg dalam kesusahan ataupon kedukaan agar bnyaklah berdoa dan berzikir. i currently not feeling well, i feel so sick i wanna puke. ive lost of appetite recently. im currently saving money. i wanna work. curently studying for MP test on thursday. wish me luck~

2010-02-08T20:43:00.014+08:00

kau nampak niy muke? expressionless. i will make this stupid face if anyone of you disturb my beauty sleep. random, yey me! okay, let me talk about school just now. i went to school with mira (bumped onto her at bus stop) and her friends. reached class one hour late, lol. k skip, den a few minutes of break, i followed K, bobo and yan (smoke). mind me, i dont smoke. so after they smoke when to co-op and they do thier job =.= ohoh, i bumped onto sobri! and khai! and khai was like "chey, kau smakin cute eyh?" otakk! lol. k diam, proceed to next class. den got 1 hr break, shirley baby came! huhu, so we both were like otw to our next class but we bumped onto 'someone', and we followed them (tryin to be a stalker). walking slowly from the back, i heard someone calling my name.. and so i ask shirley and she heard it too. lol. she pointed a bunch of guys below. but i dnt even recognised any one of them (mayb cause i wasnt looking properly). huahua! fck care, and WE LOST THEM. (bad stalker) thanks to the bunch of guys la. *claps hand* so yeh, stupid storyy I KNOW. i still want to know who is the one tht called my name. agak2 sape? lol. k skip, so we both gave up and proceed to class but, we saw 'something' instead. wow. can you believe it? it was meant to be a prank but we get shocked ourselves. how lame can they get? you know i know yeah shirley?.. =.=

so after school, went to meet a friend to settle some stuffs.
I GOT ALOT OF PROBLEMS AND NOW YOU START THE FIRE BACK?
ape guner? kau suke eyk org benci kau lebih? you spam my friends blog and all, i know its like between the both of us but you can say it in a good way right? please, syaza taknak bnde niy start all over again. aku da naek MALAS la sial. (sorry for my bad words)

to eeza, i know you will read my blog..

oh godd, kau masey tak pham ker? kau suke sgat eyk org benci kau. im sick of you trying to settle things but make it even worst. thanks alot eyk girl. baek uhs, aku da bilang kau takmo buat kecoh kn? bende lame, kau ungit baleq. skrg aku nk settle hal kau ngan dier, aku suro kau tron tamp bbl dpan2 kau tknk. kental pe minah? kau yg start dulu bey nk org bersihkn? bagos la sial. and to awie, niy smue kao nyer psl jgak. kao nk numbo pompan tu kan? syaza da bagy, bey nak ape lagy dari aku? friends, what are they for? NOTHING, they will leave you once they find a better one. oh oh, satu satu prangai mcm cbb! im sorry uh, mmg pon. harap korang sedar diri tu cket yer. i dont need anyone of you to be in my life anymore. please, aku stress uh siaaa! tu psl aku tk reply message korang. your wasting my time bxtches. bunch of losers, i got other stuffs to think about. fyi, all of you are not considered as my friends. hua hua~ da tawu diam k. py mampos cantek.

STRESSSSSSSSSSSSS LA SIAAAAAAAAA!
ya allah =(

asl la hidop syaza cam niyyyyyyyy? =(

2010-02-07T12:53:00.012+08:00

i just dont know what or how can i do to help =(

so yeahh, yesterday syaza py melawat. bf's dad just passed away. fiqah darling accompanied me to bf's house. reached like about 11am and it was already packed. syaza paiseyy but i get to meet his mum and we talk2. gee, i feel so sad and pity for his mum till my tears fell (like suddenly). bf was not there, cause he was at marsiling. me and fiqah waited till 12.30 plus till jenazah reached. i get to meet bf for awhile. and den proceed with the prayers and all. soon after, my mum came. afterwhich they left tok kebumikan. me, fiqah, mum talk2 and cheer bf's mum. me and fiqah also tried our best to put a smile on bf's small sis, haslinda. so yeahh. i didnt get to meet him afterwhich cause mum was tired so we cab-ed home. haishh, im sorry baby i wasnt there till the end, but syaza akan sentiase doakan awak sekeluarga agar terus tabah.

remember syg, you are not alone! for i am always here for you.

stay strong, cause i believe you can do it. you have to be responsible now.

you have to play a huge role now and take care of your family.

semoga fadhli sekeluarga sentiasa dirahmati Allah s.w.t. amin.

meet BF's CUTE BABY COUSIN, AQIEL ^^

2010-02-05T22:13:00.004+08:00

im sorry baby!

i wernt by your side when you were in your darkest hour =(

dear baby,

i know you are feeling so down right now. i cant help myself to stop thinking what went wrong. i just want to let you know that i am here for you giving you all my support and you know damn right you still got your mum, siblings, friends and me. we are here for you. we'll always be by your side through thick or thin. tuhan terlalu sayangkan dia.

Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat keatas roh nya dan sentiasa mendapat keberkatan darinya. Takziah diucapkan kepada kamu sekeluarga. Al-fatihah. Moga kamu sekeluarga terus tabah. dan juga dirahmati Allah s.w.t. Amin ya rabbal alamin~

2010-01-31T11:14:00.016+08:00

okay lets see, my legs are still cramp thanks to the 2.4km run.
mood: happy (:

Specially to MP's fans and supporters,

once again, on behalf of Midlife Parody we would like to say thanks
to everyone who did make it on the 30th 'JAM OUT LOUD GIG'

it really means alot to us^^

i know some of you were expecting more (moshpit).

we owe you guys an apology if the place is too small or crowded.
like i said, i wasnt expecting that many of you to come. hua hua!
im surprised to see my long lost friends in the gig too! kecoh! ^^
so once again, sorry if theres any inconvenience. we do messed up but still,
thanks for all your compliments and advices. we will improve for the better.
take note: our first originals is coming soon!

YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME! SWEAR! ^^

and oh, the other bands that performed on the 30th, AWESOME SET! keep it up!
and special thanks to the Organizer, RIN for making everything possible.

WE HOPE TO SEE ALL OF YOU IN THE NEXT GIG YEAH?

^.^

ahh, forgot to take group photoooo! darn it! =(

more on facebook!

specially to my dear bandmates,

you guys dont know how lucky i am to meet you guys! and wow i still cant believe we have made it this far. am i right? (: critics, we dont need that. lets fcuk care about what others say about our music cause you know we can do better. you know damn right all of you are talented. mistakes, it doesnt matter. we came to learn and also share. cause you guys know we form this band in the first place just to have fun. enjoy is what we aim for. i admit, im proud to be in this band. we appreciate others advices and we will improve for the better. am i right? huhu! syaza syg korang taw! lets hold on the promises we had and keep MP alive, forever! 3 cheers for you guys, you guys did very well! huhu, taq bedeq! ^^

\m/ MIDLIFE PARODY \m/

2010-01-29T22:22:00.004+08:00

AND TO THOSE WHO KEPT PASSING MY NUMBER AROUND,

YOU WATCH OUT !

im bloody pissed! MIA ah! wont be replying to un-nessasary or stupid get-to-know messages.

you guys get a life.

2010-01-29T18:49:00.015+08:00

so guess what im doing right now?
huahua, syaza stress hafal lyrics! omg, memorizing lyrics can be a pain in the head. so just now had my napfa test, 2.4km run. whoaa, shiok. k, fake! oh well, i know i wasnt running my best cause i have to admit, i HATE running (: but i will surely run my best if theres a dog chasing me *wink* k skip, im just excited about tomorrow's performance! plus, nervous. but wish me luck yeaa? huhu, gonna be funn i bet! cause 'someone' will be there *double wink*

okay diam! remind me to bring my camera please. huhu!

whats on my mind
- memorise lyrics!
- what to wear tmrw?
- him him him! (gaahh!)
- test test test next week!

kau bilang aku, camne syaza nak berubah kalo kau tak ubah prangai kau dari dulu. syaza admit, im so sick of people asking me whether im single or attached! so boys, i am attached. im freaking attached back with fadhli, my ex!!! since like (idk when) for real? YES, for like the six time! ahh, korang cakap la ape nak ckp, syaza da naeq malas! syaza pk, asl ramai org suke kecoh psl bende2 giniy. ade ke relationship kite menyusahkan korang? hidop korang? for goodness sake, kite break patch beribu2 kali pon ape korang susah ey? korang ckp kite childish? weii, childish pon at least problem kite settle. tol taq? at least syaza da bgos bagi dier peluang skali lagy. yes, after what or every shit he did to me i still gave him another chance. da bgos tu syaza bagy dier chance! naq tawu knape syaza bagy dier chance? huhu, cause i believe in this relationship. i believe we can work things out. pk baleq, if im toying around with his feelings, i would have just dump him and by now ill be with some other dude. so please, jgn jady busybody py jage tepi kain orang. taq tawu full story, diam k! i admit, i have my mistakes. but, ive never forced him to be mine again. every breakups we had, he ask for the patch up. what i do is forgive and try to forget. the past is the past. whoaaa, kecoh ey? bende2 giniy naq kecoh tapy biler pompan yg suke tukar2 jantan taq kecoh! fuhh, shiok ey? hua hua hua~ you guys told me "lupekan dier suda". hahs, never say i never tried, i did. but failed. all the past breakups we had, he proves me that he doesnt love me. and something you guys should know about me, kalo laki tuh da taq suke/syg syaza, syaza akan lepaskn. thats it. thats me (: so stop wasting my time eyk boi.

and btw, if you keep on doing this to me.. you know what will happen. huhu, syg kao!

2010-01-24T18:29:00.005+08:00

SATURDAY OUTING !

featuring: S.A.N.A (syaza, arkidd, nana, ahcap) & amir

pictures above, i love them all can? huhu! so anyways, meet at tamp and first stop somerset. bumped onto sly and nina! wooo, cant believe they recognised me. lol. so glad to meet them^^ had ljs at centre point. afterwhich we proceed to skate park, meet fir! huhu, den we make a move to orchard. play pool for 2 hours+. bought starbucks and chill at Mac Cafe. den we bus-ed down to esplanade. walk to rafles place and slack2. bumped onto my skate friends. also, got fireworks! woo, was unexpected. lol. camwhored~ lalala den walked back to esp. slack till 10.30pm. train-ed home wit nana. thanks for the day guys! really enjoyed maself. huhu! next outing ape? sentosa uh! lolol :P

sayang korang! S.A.N.A forever yea? wee :D

2010-01-24T17:38:00.011+08:00

okay sorry for not updating. let me share something about my days.
so have been busy with school and band. geez. and some stuffs to be settled.

thursday, two things i was uber pissed with, PRINTER AND STARBUCKS. so had practical test. and for the first time syaza poured tears in school. =( it was terrible. i was so pissed with the printer cause it doesnt print my shit =.= gosh, once again im sorry to sok min and yanti for me being so urgh. nvermind. i was so dissapointed in myself. thanks to that bloody printer, okk skip! after school walked to simei wit ma ite mates and i went to starbucks. i wanna buy blueberry muffin. and the girl ask me whether i would like to heat it up. and so i agreed. i knew it costs 3.30 bucks but the cashier puts 6.30. wat a freak? and when the oven opens, i saw a cake. ohno, is she deaf? =.= so i told her i want the blueberry muffin and she apologized! sorry, her bad. blablabla and and so i thought she take away my blueberry muffin but as i opened it at fadhli's void deck, WHAT A JERK!?

she gave me a piece of bread! yeahh, you heard it, a bread! urghh, sot pehr! damn her! i mean seriously is she deaf? i will head down there and complain to the manager. curse her. lol. so that night i was feeling so down. i had some misunderstanding with fadhli's mum and everything is OKAY now! (super glad) huhu! ^.^

friday, skipped school was super tired i guess. sorry aida =( so had jamming session in the afternoon, 5-7pm at CHAPTER 6 STUDIOS. wooo! as you know, we are going to have a gig there this saturday. review about the place: AWESOME! its huge and theres sofa and all. so yeahh, 4 stars! huhu, so we covered stars, run dont walk, 3 cheers for 5 years & way away songs. not bad i can say.. but we can do better! right guys? huhu, so after jamming had band meeting at Mac D. soon after hailmi & amin head home. me, sab and wan slack at hougang mall roof top. talk crap and play taiti. (standard) anyways, thanks korang for listening to my 'so taq perlu' love life story. huahua~ somehow i feel much better ^^ love love korang! proceed home afterwhich.

reached home, mummy surprised me with ROCK BAND Wii !!! whooosh, happy giler uhs. and so i ton with younger bro and my jirans (iskandar & shafiq) playing that ROCK band Wii game. standard, syaza vocalist. huhu! best uh. lagu smue maot2 uhs! eg fall out boy, taylor swift, yellowcard, all american rejects, etc

2010-01-20T19:55:00.003+08:00

DEAR FELLOW GIG FREAKS,
my band : Midlife Parody

will be performing again on the 30th.
FREE ENTRY ! it would be nice if you guys come& support! ^^

other bands: Vindication Friday , Azzura , Perfect Sphere
venue: Chapter 6 Studios
date: 30th Jan 2010
time: 6.30 pm
Those who are not sure how to go, contact me! ( Location Bugis )

Address: 141 Jalan Besar#02-01, Singapore 208859
MRT: Farrer/Lavender/Bugis

2010-01-17T14:33:00.005+08:00

SATURDAY, BOWLING @ DOWNTOWN EHUB

featuring: abg ahcap, arkidd, siti & friends (sorry i cant recall some of thier names)

wooo. as you all know, i swear i enjoyed myself. thanks for the day you guys! ^^ as you can see on the board scores who is pro in bowling lol. after bowling, had BK. cause syaza was super hungry! lmao. so bus-ed back to tamp with abg ahcap, arkidd & siti. soon after siti left. i bought my contacts and off to meet awie and wan bebek (pichures above). awie wit his ns uniform. huahua! k skip, walka round tamp mall and head home. well, actually i didnt head home. awie and me took cab sent awie home and i drop somewhere else. huhu!^^ den went fishing at sembawang. lol kecohy! tired, reached home the next morning. okay love, ill update more soon :D

2010-01-16T09:29:00.006+08:00

YESTERDAY'S POST

woke up super early for P.E. wow, first time syaza smgat naq gy p.e. huhu, run three rounds and do some crunches. den play badminton with my mates! kecohyy. school was okay, had practical and im a lil confident about my upcoming practical test(: after school, me, aida, yani, yanti, nisa and khai stayed back in school play monopoly deal. best! i won like three time just now! huhu.

afterwhich, me, yani and aida proceed home and the others head to thier class. reached home, sleep. fuhh, so tired siah syaza =.= den i woke up by arkidd's call. huhu, den quickly bathe and went out to meet nana. yeyey! story telling~ kecohy. den reached tamp, met arkidd and storry telling again! lol. we three den proceed to centuary square cause i wanna check out some contacts. so ex! gahh, k skip den botak (ahcap) came! follow him and his members den we head to ahcap's place. den ahcap treat us KFC! wooo :D syg dier!

kecohy siah pat KFC. huhu *burb. after dinner, we accompanied ahcap to his uncle's place. fuhh, wait for him downstairs was like waiting for us to fall asleep. lol. k da tu taqpe, soon he came down and we proceed to slack at block 440. got smelly feeling den we decided to make a move. shcap and kidd sent me and nana to bus stop and we bus-ed home. tireddd!

id otp with my ex till 4am+ this morning. wow.

ONCE AGAIN, thanks for the treat ahcap ^^

and thanks to all the three of you for being my listening ear (:

syaza SAYANG korang smue tawukk! SANA forever! loves!

CANT WAIT FOR LATER PLANS!

BOWLING at DOWNTOWN ^^

2010-01-14T17:05:00.006+08:00

HOT HOT HOT NEWS !

actually not that hot. uhm, so yesterday met my ex after school. huhu! met up cause i have to pass him something. and i made him wait =( alar, just a few minutes only. and so he wanna accompany me have my lunch at KFC (standard). waduuh, whenever we eat kfc, i will fer sure make him eat alot. haha. syaza so evil! sumbat dier ayam bnyak2. ameq kao. huahua~ k skip, he just love to stare at me when i am eating. he realised that i was blushing. obvious sgat ker? huhu!

CUTE KAN NIY ANAK?! huahua!

i just love to see his silly faces that never fails to crack me up! kwang3. so after lunch, he fetch me to bus stop and i bus-ed home. i was a lil surprised by the way he treat me yesterday. somehow, nevermind~ he still treats me the same (:

just now! woke up early, had presentation! well done to all my group members ^^ woo, i was nervous like (insert random words). ahh, a lil conflict here and there but i really hope and pray theres nothing to lose at the end. alright lets just skip that, attend care lesson and den proceed home straight away. tired, im going off to sleep soon. ahh, really had a long day. i need a break. eyebags go away! goshh, i had a bad habit of spending my money, i wanna save up! =( damn. any ideas how to make me stop spending my money?

2010-01-13T22:05:00.003+08:00

2010-01-12T21:18:00.012+08:00

TALK THINGS OUT and

EVERYTHINGS OKAY FOR NOW (:

wow, cant actually believe how much this relationship means to some of you. but ive set up my mind (: my apology. haish. so yeahh, citer panas ey? but now i dont blame anyone except for myself. and for that girl, please umur tu py kire sblom bbl. you aint know nothing yet. my advice to all of you out there to please beware of her. get to know the 'real' her before you even try to (insert words). huhu, best of luck especially to her current bf. hua hua :P

shes will use all your money and she could just take your life away just in a blink.

so me and my ex are bestfriends ^^ for now? hahas, okay i just helped him to print his bursary application. so yeahh, still otp with him. lalalala~ k la, what else to say? school, like normal just busy with upcoming projects and stuffs. huhu. oh oh, i get to meet wan bebek in skul and get to shop at john-little sale at expo just now! okay syaza is happy ^^

syaza is also happy to get to meet nunu bestieee just now! wheee :D but best nyer ape, sab pon ader, bey me and nunu kenekan dier rabak2. lol! anyways, thanks again bbygirl for coming down to meet me when im feeling so down at times. haishh, i really appreciate ie alot! and my apology to make you guys wait for me. dont worry too much yeaa, ill be fine. i guess. (: love ya nunu!

PICTURES UPLOAD SOON!

and to eeza eyk, name taqmo step gereq uh pkai 'NUNU' plaq. waduhh, niy pompan da kene sound maseh buat lagyk. taqde originality per kau? ohoh, 3 cheers for a POSER like you. i wonder if you know what that means.. whoops. i guess not? ade lagyk, taqmo prasan eyk girl. syaza break ngan fad pon.. psl kao mataer ngan man. bkan psl kao ngan fad. huhu, pls know the real reason before even talking behind my back. alermak, and psl syaza bnyak break ngan fad, is none of your bloody business isnt it? i got my own reasons and dont you dare accused me of my atitude. please la girl, get yr bloody facts right. syaza menyesal? fuhh, ane info kau dpt? selame ini, syaza naq menyesal wape eyk? for every breakups we had, he is the one who ask me back for a patch up. INFO mestiy tepat beb! lupe uh, at least kan aqu nyer relationship last long.. dari kau, 5 times break up and patch up in less den 2 months. (reezal) and denga2 kau yg mintaq patch up kn? and each time taq kekal nuer. pk smblom bbl k girl (: btw, aqu msok acct fad bkn sal kental, sbab aqu mmg da delete kau pat tagged bey naq buat ape? siak siak.

2010-01-11T21:24:00.014+08:00

IGNORE MY PREVIOUS POST.

i was in the state of anger. people who knows me well, knows.

so yeahh, its better to post something else rather than just posting about a girl.

how pathetic =.=

so anyways, i wanna share a lil something! that time, on the 9th (saturday).

was on the train otw to vivo city. den den train stops at little india

and this boy came in and sat beside me.

sape taq knal niy bdak kn? dier kn 'mr somebody' mahh.
Sob Elecktronika. so yeah, he sat beside me saje2 jek. syaza pon tegor dier uh.

"EYY SOBB!"

*his face confused and stare at me like one kind*

wahh, lupe member siah! wow, he took like 5 minutes to recognised me. lol? hahs, ape lagy! kite bbl uhs. kecoh kecoyh ^^ chey, maju uh dier skrg bnyak tindeq! oh, we den exchange numbers. hees. rindu cey sama dier, dala jarang nampaq dier pat skul..check2 slalu cabot skul. haiyaa! last time i saw him was at blues shop (quite some time ago) he accompany me pierce my nose. haha, actually dier saje2 jek naq tngok if i cry anot.. bluek uh! :P so yeahs, syaza super happy to see him^^ oh oh, he got ask me about fadhli! weird, he still remembers im att? hahas.

SO THAT NIGHT, I ONLINED

and chat with a lot of people. and one of them is boi acap^^ sasha, ingat dier taq? hees!

acap (LEFT) bobby joe(RIGHT)

i miss the both of them can?

long time we havent contacted. and he lost my number. so that night he asked me to call him and we otp-ed. we shared about our past ex-s!

ahahs and most of the stories we shared are the same. wow.

SO JUST NOW STORY LAGY PANAS!

i get to meet, FAFA FRUITELLA!

woo, it was in the school toilet ya know. and we like talk things out about my ex.

ahh, now i know the truth about him. hes a jerk. =.=

well yeaah, shes super tall! duhh, model beb! hahs.

OHOH, and syaza wanna say thanks to everyone who's being there for me.

yes, i recieve tons of messages.

thanks for showing that you guys are still there, and still cares for me.

you dont know how much it means to me. only god knows how much you guys mean to me ^^

i love all of you. once again thanks (:

gotta start on my reflections now! woo.

2010-01-10T10:49:00.004+08:00

YESTERDAY'S OUTING 9th JAN 2010

was the best i ever had^^ i so love my kaki gereqs!

although i was so pissed about fadhli and eeza. (damn) i hate em so much can?

but thanks to my baby girls and boys for being there for me. syaza syg korang!

featuring: syaza, nana, ahcap, siti, nizam, hai, awie, wan bebek.

FIRST STOP : VIVO CITY

2ND STOP: POOL, ORCHARD

MORE ON FACEBOOK ~

AND AND I LOVE THIS BABY GIRL OF MINE, NANA ^^

2010-01-10T00:42:00.039+08:00

THIS POST SPECIALLY TO THIS BXTCH, EEZA.

selame niy syaza da cukop bersabar, denga baeq2 eyk girl.
ive been wanting to say this all my life.

weii minah, dont you know that you have stole my life away? who am i to you uh? you take advantage of me. (money) ko mempergunakan aqu. ko carik aqu pon pasal ROKOK kn? nabey. ingat aqu bodoh pehr? rezeki aqu, aqu spent tok rokok2 bacen kao. dont get me wrong people, i dont smoke. but this bxtch USED me for buying ciggis for her. yela, sejak syaza da 18 mahh. siak. syaza taq naq ade ape ape related ngn kao lagyk. i hate your bloody atitude. please try to change eyk girl. kao suke tukar2 jantan. cpt eyk.. congrats uhr gal ko dpt jantan tuh. sial. you ruin my WHOLE LIFE YOU ASS! you broke up my relationship with fadhli. even fadhli side you, wow! so i guess a big thanks would be nice (: btw, kao susah kao carik aqu. bile da ade jantan ko tolaq aqu tepi. bagos. sial pe pompan. py mampos pon canteq. i hate you effing much la kans. biler ko ade problem ngn jantan2 kao, kao carik aqu. tapy bgos nyer ape, PSL KAO AQU BREAK NGAN FADHLI XIULS. ty eyk. and please, you are not considered my friend no more. just piss off from my life. sejak ko dlm hidop aqu, aqu seksa terok. kau tawu taq? oh, after all that i did for you, i just cant believe you did this to me. well yeahh, theres alot more, but i wont waste my time typing about a heartless girl like you. and i hate girls like you with NO ORIGINALITY. you steal my music and copy my style. ycuks!, you cried for me? haha, i dont give a flying fcuk no more. py la FLIRT ngn fadhli, fuad, man, smue la kan.. aqu tawu kao suke. kwang3. i dont need you in my life. pls sedar diri tu ciket. huhu ^^

how i wish i never had met you in the first place. (my biggest regret)

and oh girl, everyone had been talking about you. even all my ite mates, eveyone just hates you. but you know i kept it as a secret. beacuse of you, i lose so many friends i had. everyone that i know actually hates you and anti you. but weird, i still wanna be friends with you. lol, yes im stupid. but now no more, i change. i hate you even more (: your pathetic =.=

and some even sent me a message at tagged ABOUT YOU, wow so many haters yea? kcian eyk?

"Syaaazaaaa ur friend eeeza friend stealer sia..all my friend she go flirt && gi curi.. she even flirt with *****!! omgoth!! she freaking attached right?"

tc eyk minah.

2010-01-09T11:24:00.007+08:00

MIDLIFE PARODY IS BACK !

covering more new songs, yeaa man. huhu ^^

cant wait for jamming! tee hee.

woo, and yesterday met nana, arkidd and ahcap. we slacked at tamp.

later on going vivo with nana, ahcap, siti, awie, wan bebek & budak-budak 236.
ahh, i love my kaki gereqs! hope later will be funn! ^^

syaza syg korang!

oh, i wanna apologised about my previous post. i wasnt being myself lately.

been feeling down. but im okay now! hees thanks to my sweet sweet girlfriends i have (:

you guys dont know how much they mean to me. they are my jewels. i love them kay!

2010-01-04T18:54:00.008+08:00

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL ^^

kecoh kecoh! ahh, i swear im a good stalker :P

lol, so i was the first to reach outside my class! was supposed to be in class at 10am. but i reached school at 9am. cause i accompanied my junior, mira to skul. shes a newbie (: heehs. so yeahh, bus 27 standard packed and 31. (duhh) k skip the part where i am lost finding the function hall. (buat malu jek) padahal syaza da 2nd year siak. o.O k SKIP, carik tu 'pompan' nyer namehr bnyak leceh lo. so gave up. mira went in the function hall. and i? waited outside class for one hour. waduhh. skip skip, soon after shirley came! ahh, i miss her laaa! *wink

talk talk, and lesson start.. ndd OH, exam! 2nd week of march. waduhh, so fast! must catch up! lalalala~ after school me and ma ite mates slack at expo. (standard) HAIR MAKEOVER kwang3. pichures above. afterwhich, proceed home. bus-ed home with ariani. *yawns

OKAY DAH.

boring kan boring kan? i knoww.. but im happy! cause i know her class (:

yeaa, im good ^^

2010-01-03T14:35:00.014+08:00

WOO SYAZA HAPPY BANGET! ^^

so yesterday, whole day at home. standard do housechores. =.= aint getting any better,
so i web-cam. watta, niy da kes jakon smcm. omg. never web-cam before in my life. kay fake! :P

k la enjoy gambar2 syaza yg taq senoneyy^^

so as for today, last minute meet eeza dear. she needs me. cheer up k syg, im here for ue (: so met her at sengkang and we bus-ed down to tamp. supa random. o.O changed bus and we went down to baby's block. huahua~ members2 dier smue ngok kn kite. text baby im under his block. ameq kao, ngan kasot2 dier bwk tron skali, da prepare tok maen takraw. hee, i miss bf so much. 6 days never meet can #.# so yeahh, wanna know why im happy? *kening naeq2* finally, i get to meet bf's mum & small sis! ^^ ahaha, tu pon psl eeza. naq pinjam toilet. so terpakse py umah dier(: weeeeeeee! kk so me and eeza watch em play takraw. bf was good, like literally. uh? haha. his friends was like, "mentang2 minah kao adehr.." aiseyy. thanks eyk! (:

so yea, glad to meet bf. huhu. and oh, IM SO EXCITED ABOUT TMRW !!!
school reopens and you know i miss some of you. *wink

HAPPY FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL FRIENDS ^.^

and good luck to those who dyed their hair. eyk.

in case you dont understand malay, den its better you should learn soon. ty.

2010-01-01T22:38:00.008+08:00

woo, its so ah-mazin to spent the first day of new year
with my gereq ite mates!

featuring: syaza, nisa, aida, ariani, yanti, rika, nadia, ayue, hadi, khair & gf

heehs, this outing was planned like long ago and everything went on smooth (: kay, supposed to watch movie. but ended up we karaoke at cash studio, orchard. ahh, place was perfect! but supaa cold` i was freezng the entire 3 long hours. fuhh! syaza nyanyi pon terkekek2. ade part pancut. lols. but who cares? geee, nisa nyanyi baeqq! not forgeting the others too ^^ glad that everyone sang and enjoyed themselves (: fuhh, after karaoke-ing for three long hours, we train-ed down to lau pa sat, raffles. soon, khai joined us. everyone was down with hunger. lol. you bet, we ordered alot! haha. satay, mutarbak, sotong, ikan pari, udang, etc. kecoh satu meja. haha! (:

after dinner, we proceed home. tired~ woo, one day spent like almost 30 bucks.
reach home, standard otp with bf and drop dead.

woo, thanks again for the day guys! ahh, lets do more outing!

and hope this time everyone can make it ^^ PICTURES ON FACEBOOK !

FEAT. NISA & YANTI ^^

MA GORGEOUS LADIES ^^

2010-01-01T04:34:00.017+08:00

just like any other shit, i would like to wish everyone

A HAPPY NEW YEAR ! ^^

lets welcome 2010. may this year be blessed with happiness and peace(: anyway, this year im hoping for the best to grow tall. thats my ultimate wish. hahas, kay fake! anyways, i spent my countdown with my kaki gereks! nana, arkidd, ahcap, wan bebek, awie, eeza & some others ^^ went to city hall, marina. soon after sabril & couz joined us. 5-4-3-2-1 make the FIRE-WORK! yey, fireworks was like 8 mintutes longgg~ no regrets. amazin`

(^____^)

i swear i was the happiest person in town. hahas! joke :P so planned to ton. but ended up cab-ed home from tamp with eeza. you guys have no idea how we left the huge crowd at marina. fuhh, no need to elaborate any further. so yeahh, eeza slept over my house today! so countdown didnt bumped onto many friends, only a few =.- well, maybe i change alot. so people didnt recognise me. good laaa, low profile *wink* ahh, so now still surfing the net. eeza is beside me playing with my web-cam. lol.

later on is a big day. so i think i better drop dead.

SO YEAH, PICTURES !

MORE ON FACEBOOK ! ^^V

2009-12-30T20:35:00.009+08:00

as you all know, i dont have a blog song. shoots, k im tired~

lets talk about yesterday. like i said i spent the whole day with khai bestie at town. first, met him up at somerset. lol biase jgak i came late, cause have to do housechores before going out. sorry khai =( k skip, we den proceed to cathay cineleisure. planned to watch movie, AVATAR 3D. yes, ive watched it already but 3D is better of course! other movies *yawns* =.= so yeah, the time line is in red and we check the seats for 6pm and its like FULL HOUSE ! waduhh, so we decided to watch somewhere else. and so we walked to cathay dhoby ghaut. oh, FULL HOUSE TOO! but theres two seats right at the front row, so terpakse la kan..

tickets costs 10 bucks. movie starts at 5.45pm. before movie, we had lunch at KFC (standard) at PS *burp*. after lunch, right on time we proceed back to cathay. grab out 3D glasses and proceed to watch e movie. wooo, i still aint sick n tired of watching the movie over and over again. oh my, i think im in love with this movie! =.= (syaza feeling feeling sei ngok tuh cite) hahs!

so after movie, khai and me walk2 around orchard central garden rooptop and toured around the new shopping centre at somerset. whoaa, im in love with FOREVER 21 dresses! shoots, i gotta shop there soon~ aye, afterwhich we train-ed home. tired~ once again, thanks alot bestie for the dayy! hahs, i had a good time spending time wit ya just now! woo, meet up again soon k! ^^ love love!

JUST NOW PLAN (going ite bal) CANCELED.
i swear i miss bf. recently his phone bill been cut =( duhh, how to contact him?!
ahh, i cant stand it no more. swear, i can die without him by my side. ahh, i need his company!
where are you now my babylove? =[ ahh, please gimme a call or something.

you dont know how much im worried of you =/

2009-12-29T13:26:00.003+08:00

update more about yesterday later on (slack at tamp with nana, arkidd, ahcap & man)
read more on NANA's bloggieh.

http://deadly-winter.blogspot.com/

alright, so later on will be heading down to town. to meet, khai bestie! wooo, dier kan da ade motor but syaza taq ley tumpang bab taqde extra helmet. waduhh, kecoh la kn. no helmet, no ride =( so yeaa, im so looking forward for later on! hahas, cuase its been some time i havent went out with him, tee hee! asyek2 dier bz jek. so yeea, finally! huahua~ so last night, i was awoke by (someones) call and i check my inbox. sanchez text me! lol so we txt mxj till 3am and i fell asleep. lol sorry! so anyways, tmrw will be meeting bf and eshia syg! woo, me and bf accompany eshia to ite balestier to have her enrollment there? hahas, so maybe me buying new uniform there too ^^ hees, so yeahh. cant wait for later and tmrw! lololol! and theres more plans ahead too!

31st DEC, COUNTDOWN! (but still considering where)
1st JAN (outing with ite mates)
4th JAN (school reopens)

i so cant wait for school to reopen! makk, excited xiuls. i so got the mood to go school everyday noww.. naq tawu kenape? cause of 'her' thanks eyk babe. so looking forward during school. ape uh, business office skills eyk? i will be waiting for you k dear. syg kao! kay fake! :P oh oh, wan bebek also got in my school! baeq pa! ^.^ ahh, excited laaaaaaaaa! okay dah.

2009-12-27T22:57:00.007+08:00

26TH DECEMBER 2009

oh man, im so so so lazy to update my blog! please, kill this bad habit away. oh yar, i realised i forgot to post about yesterday (26th December). baeq uh syaza. so anyways, on the 26th, planned to go town. den bf buat prangai and so i just head down to bugis to meet ahcap and arkidd. ohoh, best nyer ape taw, they wore the same shirt and same cap on that day. whoaa, cute xiak. tee hee! so we had our lunch at banquet, raffles hospital. oh, its raining -.- after lunch, we train-ed down to town (somerset). walked around heeren cause i wanna go shopping! k, mummy gave me like 60 bucks. nothing interest me, so we proceed to far east plaza. pon same jgak! so we train-ed down to tamp. cause i dying to buy this shrt at fox! so cpat2 gy fox, and the shirt is nowhere to be found. waduhh! buat syaza sot siot. ended up i bought short pants (wasnt planning to). k skip, masok cotton on bought legings and arkidd had his shopping at centuary square. proceed to tamp one and i shop again. lalala~ pas tuh, home sweet home. tired liaooo~ whole day wasnt in the fugging mood, cause of bf. haishh,

but that night *kening naeq2* we talk otp and everything was okay AGAIN (:

bgos uhr, slalu gituk la. gado sekejap den da okay (standard). hees, kecoh kan kite? tawuu :P

i love my boyfriend so so much la! (meow) hes forever mine! wo-ai-ni

(^___^)

so just now meet bf. he came down to seng kang to meet me (like old times)

woo, camwhore alot!

but lazy to upload all. so yeahh.. but

whatever it is, i still love love my cute boyfriend, woo!

SYAZA SUKE BILER DIER KAI SPECS ^^

2009-12-26T21:10:00.008+08:00

so yeahh, CURRENTLY EATING KINDER BUENO. wee hoo! naq ciket? bluekkk!

its all mine! nyahaha! now let me talk about yesterday and today..

yesterday, my family and i head down to downtown ehub to catch a movie. my couz (ammar) joined us too. thought of watching avatar, ended up we watch two movies (avatar & chipmunks 2) whoaa. one after another. waduhh, sit there for more than like 4 hours xiaaa. wow. first time watch two movies on a day. haha! kecohh.

k, i love love love avatar! feeling2 xia syaza pat wayang. sumpah best! waduhh, feel like watching again! but this time, in 3D! conferm best, tee hee! alvin&the chipmunks 2 was not bad either. supaa funny and you bet, SUPER CUTEEE! hees, especially theodore (yg si boncet dan si pendeq) :P mcm aqu jgak, aiseyy taqla! heee, so yeahh after both movies, i straight went in to the ladies (ape lagy). haha, feel much better (: ehub was like supa packed, you bet. holiday mah. so met eeza syg, wow she waited for me super long xiaa, kcian woi! so she joined me and my family have dinner at warung. i had kway teow goreng (standard) :P

after dinner, family took bus and home sweet home. me and eeza slack to seng kang till 11.30pm and home sweet home. fuhh, tired semcm liao. back home, otp wit bf and we fought again (taq habes2). knape eyk laki suke buat prangai? suke saketkn hati aqu? im like too tired to fight wit him over and over again. pls, sedar diri tu siket. dont be selfish ey boi. haishh, i nearly giving up again. waduhhh!

=((

you dissapoint me once more.

2009-12-25T13:58:00.014+08:00

AS YOU ALL KNOW, TODAY IS XMAS
SO HAPPY HOLIDAYS YAW!

anyways, later im off down to downtown with my family to catch a movie, avatar. heard that its good. so do watch it! and oh, me and bf are in good terms now, tee hee! :DD last few nights been otp with him till 4am. ahh, miss those times when he sing me to sleep(: gee, and i love him to e max can? :P okay okay, enuff. will be meeting bf tmrw! weee, so cant wait! ^.^

weird, each time i got some problems which i kept inside, mummy always asked me random questions like "ade problem? bilang mama." awhh, dier mcm tawuu ajek! hehee, but now everythings fine(: dont worry too much k mummy! love love ^^

so anyhoes, heres a lil info to all muslims out there,

HARI AHAD 27 DECEMBER 2009 ,

HARAP SEMUA MUSLIMIN DAN MUSLIMAT
BER PUASA

Kelebihan berpuasa pada hari itu ialah ia dapat menghapuskan

dosa-dosa setahun yang telah lalu (2008).

so yeahh, happy fasting!

2009-12-25T00:12:00.006+08:00

FUN FUN FUN ON XMAS EVE !

WHOAA, TOWN WAS SUPPER PACKED WITH PEOPLES, MATI2 BEREBUT NAQ AMEQ GAMBAR NGAN SI JANGUT =^.^=

so first, before going out have to do housechores as usual. so quickly went out of house, fear of getting late. tee hee. supposed to meet nunu dear, mx and felicia at orchard 4.30pm. reached nearly 5pm. but surprisingly i wasnt e last person to arrive. heehs! me and nunu exchange our late bday presents, lol da mcm xmas present eyk beb? heee! so once everyone was there, we proceed down to cathay cineleisure to have out lunch at pastamania! ^^

been some time ive havent had pastamania with my friends. heehs. so yeahh, me and nunu bought drinks at 7-11 (budget uh). hees, and we proceed up. ordered our food, yum yum yumm! *burp heehs, afterwhich had some shopping (accessories). kecoh! den down to the ladies. stupid mats, i swore alot on them. nyahaha! dasar da taqde keje kacao org. k skip, we headed down to heeren. woo, got performance la cey! skip, we tour-ed around each shop and camwhored!

more pictures wit nunu and fel (:

soon after, nana called have to meet her up. so we proceed down to paragon. check2 tukar plan. meet her at centre point instead. while otw, kecoh uh niy mat! fel saw it, (waduhh, paisey pa). he deserve a tight slap from me. lol, watever. so there were, nana & fren, arkidd, ahcap and bobby! wooo :D wa rindu banget sama wa nye teddy bear (bobby)! tee hee :P glad to see him. and so nunu, fel and mx left. the rest of us proceed to accompany ahcap had his dinner? haha. kecohrables!

heee, den me, arkidd and ahcap have to went off. i proceed down to tamp wit them. cause have to meet awie and wan bebek! wooo :D syaza taq sabar naq ngok awie and his botak head. lol (busted) so waited for them at ahcap's void deck. waduhh, slow naq mampos! soon after they reached! yey, saw awieee! wa rindu dowh sama diaaa! and hes freaking cute la with his botak head, sumpah :P and so we walk2 around tamp one, etc.

CANDID!

time shows 10.30pm and they fetch me to the bus stop. home sweet home~

AND OH, reached home and opened up nunu's present

and to my surprise, OMGOMG (speechless)

I LOVE IT! ITS A PLANE, NO ITS A DRESS !

heehe :D ahh, thanks so much syg for the gift, its the best gift i had so far.

and i cant wait to wear it! wee :D

syg dowh sama my babygirl niyys! i love her very the very much!

anyways, im glad that you love my gift too (:

meet up again soon sweets! ^^

[♥][♥][♥]

2009-12-23T22:05:00.005+08:00

MENGAPA BEGINI..

Puas sudah telah aku bersabar. Untuk pertahankan cinta kita. Semakin diriku menahan peritnya, Semakin engkau membuat angkara.

Apa sebenarnya ingin kau miliki. Bertahun berlalu kau masih begini. Ku harapkan dikau dapat berubah. Tapi sengketa yang kau pilih diantara kita.

Apa sebenarnya salah dan silapku. Hingga sanggup kau berdusta padaku. Mungkin jugak silap ku terima kau kembali. Dan menaruh harapanku sepenuh hati.

Mengapa begini harus ku hadapi. Mengapa jalan ini yang kau pilih. Mengapa berpisah diantara kita.Segala ku beri dikau segalanya.

Dengan apa yang ku beri, Tidak cukupkah untuk kau hargai. Mungkin juga engkau masih Belum kenal erti cinta yang suci ..

full song : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JVclJvH60R8

2009-12-23T14:21:00.007+08:00

SHEESHA 22ND DECEMBER

wit XPS mates ^^

featuring: syaza, nunu, sabril, nysa, laila, azizi, ariff, zamree, muzamir

its so cool to still keep in contact with your primary school mates ya know, wee! may all of us have a long lasting friendship. woo! so anyways, sheesha! first time jgak syaza try. loved it^^ but not really addicting. hees, so part kekek apehr tau, first went in to the place, the ladies over there stared at me and they said

" NO UNDERAGE, HERE "

i was like, WHO? ME?!

and they die die wanna check my IC. waduhh. paiseyy pa? so i show em my IC lohr. wahliao. -.- dont i look like 18 meh? still young eh syaza, bgos uhs. now im not afraid, wanna check my IC my IC lohr. we'll see whos ended up PAISEYH k (: bluehh! abey da gituh sab ketawe kn aqu. watever la kns. k so we ordered sheesha, green apple flavour and some drinks. and so one by one came. while waiting we played some cool games like UNO stacko, donkey, babi game, snake and ladder and last of all, taboo! hees, was funn! we spent like more 3 hours there. from 6pm to 9pm. funn la, play games and sheesha and order more fries! lol. and nunu always make funny jokes^^

ITS A BIRD, ITS A PLANE!

waduuh, i cant help myself to stop laughing =P

More pictures on facebook!

so anyways, i enjoyed myself alot yesterday. next year march, plan chalet kn?

weee, so cant wait! love love korang, meet again soon (:

and ohh, syaza syg banget sama nunu^^

shes the best among all, tee hee :D i love her!

2009-12-22T11:58:00.002+08:00

been listening to this song every night..

cried my tears off to sleep.

2009-12-21T23:45:00.007+08:00

ANOTHER REASON WHY MY BLOG IS GETTING BORING:
CAUSE THERE IS NO SPAMMERS!

please, anyone feel free to spam my blog. without you guys this blog is dying! so yeahh, syaza da bagy green light untok spam. so viewers of this blog, leave yr name and express your thoughts to me, aye? ya know. its been like idk years i havent had any spammers so far. wow. im impressed! (kay fake)

KAY, ignore the post above, i was just joking. joke ah joke tawuk! i dont need any extra people to leave thier un-needed comments here. i just need to know if theres still readers in this blog cause i mean, i find no one actually read my shit. so i dont have to waste my time posting every single day for you few people who actually read ma shit. id better just delete it. whats the use of having a tagboard.. please eyk dear friends, it would be nice if you tag at ma tagboard after reading my shit. tknq taqpe, syaza taq pakse (: tapy syaza udah mendaq! whatt? what am i talking about? waduhh, sot pa?! sorry yer, its okay if you guys dont wanna tag. im fine with it(:

so anyways, forget all this shit. let me talk about my days.. i had the worst but not e best yet. only babygirl knows it. haish, down down down down, yeaa been feeling down lately. been crying in public. what? public siaah, taq tawu malu pehr olang! syaza syazaa~ k skip, im trying my best to cheer up. yeahh, just came back from slacking with bbyg, reached home and mummy surprised me with a new lappy! pat katil pulaq tuh! cheyy, notebook lahr.. WEEE :DD this was supposed to be my late bday present. tee hee! thanks mummy, ilysm tawuukk! your e best!

LOVE LOVEE! [♥][♥]

told yah, the worst and the best. *wink

2009-12-20T20:50:00.007+08:00

RESULTS!

k, it seems like everyone knows that N level results are out! so yeahh, heard some really good news from my mates about thier results. alhamdulilah smue pass (= everyone get thier chance to proceed to sec 5 and some get the course that they want in ite. thats good and im gladd ^^ once again, congrats! tee hee :D remember dearest, no matter how well or bad your results is, as long as you never gave up and you still got the interest to study, thats fine (: kita smue hamba allah, smue hamba allah pandai2 ^^

okay, now lets see. ive been thinking lately.. i find my blog a lil too boring. like seriously, not a lil but too much! waduhh, ive been posting about my days hanging out and stuffs but never post a proper post about how im feeling lately. so much for the drama. think back, who the __ cares about how i feel right, no use telling how i feel here in this ___. im sorry, ive been so down lately. and i dont know why. so dont bother.

nuff said. i hate this part right here.

: jobless.

i need a job, like emergency!

2009-12-19T22:58:00.013+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY

TO MA ONE AND ONLY BESTEST BABY GURL,

SITI NURIANAH AKA NUNU ^^

fewiitt dier da 18 la cey! finally yer cik kak? hehe, same2 tue. blueks :P

ahh, glad you enjoyed yr day sweetheart! you still haven get e best yet from me.

i owe you a present syg, so meet up soon k, love!

sekali lagi, syaza ingin mengucapkn selamat hari ulang tahan yg ke lapan belas!

moga panjang umur, sihat dan mendapat murah rezeki, tee hee! amin~

senyum senyum selaluuu (^___^)

sayang banget sama nunu ^^

LOVE LOVE

[♥][♥][♥]

ohoh, not forgeting at the same time,

HAPPY 5TH MONTHSARY TO ME AND BOYFIEE!

ahh, you guys dont know how much this relationship means to me.

i still love him like i always do since i first set my eyes on him.

hes the air that i breathe, hes e reason for my smile and my laughter.

hes my everything. all that i ever wanted.

mohd fadhli, i wish you were reading this.

this is for you bby,

i know we've been through alot for this past 5 months.

you know myself well, in and out. im happy that you had changed for the better.

boy, consider yourself special cause you are e only boy

that had opened up my heart once more and made me fall in love again.

you are the only boy that i

i will do anything for, for us to never apart.

i can still see the trust, sincerity, faith,security & love in your eyes.

you will always be my angel.

and you know damn right that,

IM THE LUCKIEST GIRL ON EARTH TO HAVE YOU.

ilysm dear. semoga cinta kita berkekalan. amin~

may we have a long lasting relationship k syg? wee! :DD

[♥][♥][♥]

I SWEAR I LOVE HIM

2009-12-16T22:10:00.008+08:00

SWENSENS, PARENTS TREAT !

yum yum, aso anyways i went out wit ma family(excluding ma younger bro) to catch our lunch at swensens. wee :D ohoh, also for my late bday celebration. tee hee! i had mac n cheese, surprisingly i get to finish my food! hahaas blueh :P k skip, den had our desert! yum yum, chocolate sundae fudge. woo. k, parents take away food for younger bro and bought a chrismas special hazelnut cake from swensens worth 49 bucks. so expensive! so i went off to tamp afterwhich to meet ma cute sk8ter girl, ESHIA !

cute la kn dier ^^ i miss her so. its been quite some time we havent met and slack togeda. heehs, so accompanied her had her lunch at food culture, century square. afterwhich we surveyed some trucks at miz 29. kecoh! its like still raining, planned to sk8 at bishan park but plan spoil due to e weather. gahhh! so spent our time walk2 around tamp and we train-ed down to bishan. fuhh, naseb hujan da stop. me and eshia had mc flurry while waiting for others to come. soon, two of her friends came, one of them is FARHAN ! hahaha, sape taq knal. :P

k skip, four of us den walked to e sk8 park. lalalala~

finally, saw eshia on the deck! wooo, SO CUTEEEEE! swear ^^ and oh, she sk8 real good, jgn maen2. she even tried the ramp! oh my, thats so brave of her! im there, like looking so worried of her and looking at her fall each time, waduhh! =( hope shes okay.. ahh, but i really am proud of her, she overcomed her fears. wooo! shes just awesome! tee hee ^^

okay so time shows nearly 9pm and we proceed home. i bus-ed home alone.

eshia dear, thanks again for the day! it was nice to see you again just now!

and ohh, thanks for e hot hot hot news and topics we shared, you know i know *WINK

alright, im hopping to see you again soon girl!

love love ma cute sk8ter girl [♥]

2009-12-15T23:36:00.007+08:00

had a long day with bbyg, eeza lee ^^

met her at seng kang and proceed to have our lunch at kfc. after eating, we bus-ed down to tamp to meet her friend (still dont know his name). -.- reached, e three of us slack at blk 236 for awhile and off we went to blk 44?. did something stupid, but someones looking D: and suddenly it poured heavily. gahh, sejukkkkk! wish bf was there =( k skip, we waited and waited, waduhh mendaq peh! rain nearly stop and we bus-ed back down to tamp. walk2 around tamp one and proceed back to blk 236. others left and we slack play cards till 8.45pm. eeza and fren wanna slack at seng kang. so we bus-ed down to seng kang slack awhile, eat mee segera and proceed home at 10.30pm. fuhhhh, tired liao.

bathed, text bf and otp wit him till late late (cam taq biase gitu)

to boys out there, you guys love to see chick-s/chicki-es kan?

now, heres something for you..

AMEQ KAO !

nanny-nanny poo poo !

2009-12-14T22:45:00.006+08:00

OUT WITH BOY-FRIEND :P

he surprised me with my birthday gift! woo, he bought me shoes! and i loved it, swear ^^

oh oh and a birthday card too, how sweet can he be?! (: love love [♥][♥]

kk, so met bf at tamp wit his friends along. accompanied them had thier job interview at the cafe cartel (not halal) hmphft! kk, afterwhich walk2 at tamp mall. den his friends proceed to town. me and bf went downtown to catch a movie. im dying to watch zombie land but org tuh taq cukop umor uhr (bf) hahaha! so terpakse ngok NEW MOON! heehs. movie was like 2+ hours xiaa (wasnt expecting) cause i find it real fast! hmm, overall its okayy.. bf was like so blur inside e cinema and i have to explain everything to him -.- lebih baeq kn ngok cite princess & e frog ceyy. lol :P so anyways, movie start at 7pm and we spent our time at e beach before e movie starts. so windy~ yet fun! cause he loves to tickle me, waduhhhh! taq ley angs! :P

heehs, so after movie, we proceed home. bf sent me to bus stop.

home sweet home. i fell asleep and no late night calls. lolol~ sorry dear!

anyway, thanks again for your surprise gift dear! ilyvm!

denga2 mak ue yg pilihkn? hehe, thanks again! much lovee!

2009-12-13T00:14:00.007+08:00

out with bby gurl, eeza lee ^^

had supa much funn, taq bedeq!

k, i bought new contacts! woo, colour green and grey! k, tried e green contacts and it turned out sucks. cause e colour is not that obvious. its like plain black -.- den eeza dying to try out e contacts, so she used my old ones. and it turned out good(: just that its blur, cause different degree mahh :P heehs, so yeh from tamp we trained down to bugis to meet eeza friend. check2 typical -.- ramai pehr, cheat us. hmpft. malu malu kuceng btoyy. bus-ed back down to seng kang and slack till 11pm (i think).

home, bathed and otp with bf till late late. k done.

tired~

2009-12-12T00:31:00.006+08:00

FINALLY, IM LEGALLY EIGHTEEN ! ^.^

once again, syaza wanna say thanks to those who wished me on my 18th birthday! whether by text messages, calls, on tagged & facebook and at some of yr blog post. lastly thanks to my bbygirls and boys who celebrated with me on that day. im so touched, swear. i love you guys la!

[♥][♥] LOVES [♥][♥]

syaza ingin berterima kasih skali lagy kepada mereka!

nana, arkidd, man, hai, aliff & faiz

and also, sorry about what had happened. i really hope

you guys enjoyed yerself like i do (: and thanks for e sabo! LOL

not forgeting, ma bandmates (hailmi, sab, amin, wan) and babygirl nunu^^

thanks for the bbq! despite the long journey and some misunderstandings, i really enjoyed myself so much. thanks alot.

oh oh sabo part II rabak pehr! i can still smell e garlic chilli sause on ma hair ya knoww! hmpfft! haha :P

oh oh, also i love love love e presents you guys gave me!

MUACKS ! SYG KOWANGGGG !

[♥][♥] LOVES [♥][♥]

2009-12-10T21:17:00.002+08:00

UPDATE SOOON ~

stay tuned.

2009-12-08T22:35:00.007+08:00

skipped school.

meet bf at his place. glad to see him once again(: slack with him and his friends.

and after that, as usuals slack wit them (:

soon after awie and wan bebek joined us ^^

ahhh, they mean alot to me. they are my heart beat. this will be the last time i will get to see awie cause he too leaving for National Service on the 11th. =(

syaza juga akan sentiase doakan keselamatan awie. amin.

waduhhh, eveyone's leaving me. why oh why?

2009-12-07T22:48:00.005+08:00

AHCAP MARIO
my dear god brother left for National Service [♥]

will never forget the day i last see him. was in the verge of breaking down. im sorry, it still hurts to see you leave. im worried for you. remember our promises. syaza akan sentiase doakan keselamatan abg. will wait for your return no matter how long it takes. gonna miss you dearly.

love, syaza (:

good news, that same night khai bestie called and he ask to meet up downstairs my block.

he says he wanna show me someting, to my surprise this is what i saw..

this was the best surprise ever! im so happy for him! swear ^^ he got a new SP (honda) bike.

dalam senyap2 eyk khai.. heee! so syaza pon jakon, syaza tumpang skjap. hees,

thanks again for the ride (: next time bwak dua helmet, tee heee! syg khai! jumpe lagik! ^^

2009-12-06T13:22:00.013+08:00

PLAN SPOIL !

oh myy, i still feel terrible bout yesterday =( anyways, sasha and friends i hope you read this post. kay, i feel bad bout yesterday, serious. i know you guys just get to know that all of us came like so last minute. once again i myself apologise to you and your friends about your couple day plan outing. we really do mess it up didnt we? but we didnt mean to. kite datang bukan naq buat kecoh, cume naq enjoy k. cmon, for ahcap's sake k. i mean, he's leaving for NS like 2 more days and why cant we join along the fun since it may be our last chance to spent time with him before he leaves. isit wrong of him to invite along his friends? syaza bukan naq masok campor la, tapy pk aleq prangai satu2 taq perlu kays. cause you know its not our fault. and please eyyk, dont say such things towards my friends. cause the fact is, they are the same age as you guys. once again, sorry.. aye, nuff said.

so yesterday, escape theme park outing with

nana, ahcap, arkidd, siti, man, sharil, aliff, sasha and friends.
main thing, we really enjoyed ourselves ^^
thanks again for the day you guys. loveee korang ! ♥

CURRENT MOOD : BAD, really in bad mood.

im sick of everyone around me. im sick of people who dont understands me.

just leave me alone for once. ive had enuff.

ive been feeling shit this past few days. all thanks to you. i wanna MIA.

ya allah! =(

2009-12-04T22:25:00.007+08:00

days have never been better. sorry again for these past few days i skipped school. waduhh, ape naq jadyk syazaaaa.. astaghfirullah. sorry to nana dear, abg ahcap and others these past two days never slack wit you guys. ahh, swear i miss you guys. better spent time with yall before its too latee (8 dec).

so yesterday, planned to meet nunu darla watch movie with her classmates. so for the first time after 2 month syaza went to woodlands. wooo, lame xia taq tron sanehr. kk, so meet eeza bby first. waduhhh, we havent met like since i went to australia xiaa. rinduuuuu sama diaaa! ^^ so slack2 and spent time wit her till she went off proceed to tamp meeting her bf. bumped onto may and liyaa at cwp too! misses! so we watched,CASE 39. cathay was packed cause of e sneak preview of NEW MOON. but nvm, we still gonna watch case 39. MOVIE WAS GOOOD ^^ loved it, but ending sucks. well, expected more, but overall its okayy. scary? you bet. hees.

RATING : 7/10

after movie, slack2 near mrt station and bus-ed home with one of nunu's mate, bridget (her name, i think). lols. kecoh uh clasmates nurin! tee hee ^^ had a great dayy, thanks again syg! loves!

in case i forgot,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BEST MATE, HIDZIR ^^

JUST NOW, spent the whole day with him. tee hee! he ajak jumpe, so why not? since i free, hees. so met him at orchard and we walk2 around ion. we're lost searching for BK. so terpakse go to cathay cineleisure. had lunch and talk2. hees, catch up the good times, etc. hees, ohoh at cineleisure, bumped onto amalia sayangg! waduhh, lame cey taq jumpe! hugged her! hees, so we walk to skate park. bumped onto tazzy dear! wee :D kk, so i thought of going city hall since lamehr taq gy sanehr. and so we walked there. tireddd~ but funn! cause hidzir always make me laugh non-stop ^^ tee hee, you know i know eyk hidzir.. gay gay gay! lol? so yehh, we walked alot. from penin(nothing) to esplanade(bored) to marina square(mendaq) to suntec city(okay2 la), den home sweet home at 9.30pm. trained home alone. waduhh, tired smcm. ahh, had a great dayy, cause whole day been laughing non-stop wit hidzir's jokes. waduhhh~ taq ley angss! heees ^^

thanks again for the day eyk! syg dierrr!

i change eyk? hees, but thank god he said i change for the better, heees!

meet again soon k mate! loves! (^.^)

2009-12-02T23:41:00.010+08:00

oh myy, syaza super long never update. lol, padahal brape hari jehr. kays, syaza is so lazy to update cause theres no more interesting stories to tell. aiseyy, padahal bnyak cite cey! waduhh, dunno where to start..

syaza feeling so down lately cause something major happened (i guess most of you should know), syaza wanna say thanks to friends who tried cheering me up despite me crying in front of them. waduhhh =( too much to handle the hurt. sorry nana, sorry abg ahcap. and thanks again, without you guys there for me, i can do things you can never imagine.

so yeahh, one by one my love ones leaving me. leaving me for good. National Service that is! watta, what is that? NS, why is there such things? haish, abg ahcap & AFI leaving for NS on 8 dec =( awie leaving for NS on 11 dec (wth, on my special day?? D= ) bro going NS too. whyy, oh whyy? darn it, and i cant do anything but can only spent time with them till this week. ahhhhhh, syaza naq outing! haishh, tapy mcm trlalu lambat kns? sedeh pah!

im tired, im tired of waiting for you boy..

till when? till when will this end?

no where.

yesterday, ended school early and went to meet awie at tamp. waited for wan bebek. reached, we slacked at void deck blk 236 wait for e ahcap and others to come. soon they came, nana too. play soccer a while. kecoh! then me, wan and awie, we proceed to awie's crib. play XBOX dunno what game but funn! racing, and i lost twice so kana forfeit. malu pahh! k skip, den proceed home, rained. meet danny at void deck awhile den home sweet home.

just now, after school meet nana at popeye century square. proceed to blk 236, cam biase. meet e others there, play soccer. syaza kene bully lagyk! waduhhh. soon play true or dare. haha, man kene make-up! baekk^^ k, soon after abg ahcap came. slack2 den ahcap blanje! woo :DD thanks again! hees, den tibe2 nana jalan. haishh, cheer up k sygg! im here for ue taw! hmm, soon after arkidd came. walk2 at tamp mall den ahcap and kidd sent me to bus stop^^ syg dorangggggg!

so thats my life, every single day at tamp..

2009-11-30T17:31:00.009+08:00

WOO ! 29th NOVEMBER 2009

My band, MIDLIFE PARODY rock the stage! all thanks to the supporters i mean our supporters of course! you guys rock! amazing, swear. ahh, i love you guys so much that words cant describe. sumpah, syaza feel so touched when friends surprised me, came down to my gig. whooa. syg korang uh weii! ^^ it means alot to me when friends still do text me saying and wishing me all e best in my performance when they cant make it that day. it really do means alot (:

so yeahh, my band performed at 7pm but before that theres other bands performing like I AM GRACE, HERO FOR THE DAY, AND I REVENGE and NIGHTMARE TRILOGY. i swear, they were way better than my band. hahaha, da gituh syaza abit paiseyh. but whats best is, during my band performance, everyone were jumping and singing along! ahaha, kecohh^^ despite me, losing my voice halfway (due to the previous day jamming session) and forgot some parts of the lyrics. lololol. part lupe lyrik tuh last part when we got our first ever ENCORE! wooo. so far people comments, they say we should work on our sportsmanship. lol. yelahr, syaza maseh taq pass layan crowd, trlalu nervous =((

anyway, ON BEHALF OF MIDLIFE PARODY, we are really thankful for those who came down and support us! ahhh, next gig we promise it will be a memorable one and jumping around too^^ thanks again you guys! pictures will upload on facebook, so check out my fb ^^

I HAD SO MUCH FUNNNNN ! swear. ^^

hope everyone do too! one part, i gave the mic to the crowd and they sing along ^^

baek uh! this day gonna be something i will never forget.

2009-11-28T23:00:00.000+08:00

im leaving this blog DEAD.

cause i think its no use updating.

2009-11-25T21:15:00.007+08:00

24th NOVEMBER 2009

had so much funn la kans? those who were there know what i mean.. (kening naek2) :D

featuring: syaza, nana, ahcap, arkidd, irahh, sashaa isabelle, iqahh & sis

venue: clementi

but arkidd had to leave early due to some reasons. (supa sad about it) =((((

ENJOY THE PICHAAAAAS !

Syaza Pixie Feat Nana Cleopatra ^^

hearts her!

A.N.S.A (arkidd.nana.syaza.ahcap)

New friends are loved! Feat. irahh - nana - syaza

Singapore's biggest EXTREME MAKE-OVER!

(jeng jeng jeng, pls dont try this at home)

Featuring : AHCAP MARIO !!!

From a Nerdd,

and so We thought of applying some make up....

so Heres the outcome...

YIKESSSSS ! like bapok thailand. lol whoops? our bad.. =(

and so nana got a great ideaaaa! (boom)

and so here is the outcomee....

PERFECT ! MEET OUR NEW FRIEND, MUSTAFA ! Weeee :DD

2009-11-24T06:41:00.006+08:00

SO yesterday (monday),

kecoh la kns, like my first day going back to skul from holidays. ahh, swear i miss my mates! syaza woke up early2 cey and bf sent me to inter. ahh, he wore specs! cutee^^ ohoh, i get to be the fourth person to come inside class. baekk! ^^ (proud cket). lol then while waiting for the rest to come, me and teacher chit chat a bit about my holidays. lagy kecoh! den proceed on with the lesson. hee, syaza begitu nyer concentrate, monday exam mah. (serammm!)

kk, school was funn! idk why but i find it funn^^ brought along my poker (jumbo size) cards and me and mates play in skul. nisa brought her camera and we camwhored too! best! so after skul, me went to tamp wit ayue and i proceed to meet abg ahcap and nana! ahh, you dont know how much i miss themmmm! hugged nana and we proceed to walk to ahcap's place. wooo! members2 dier baek! cute cutee! syaza suker! we played soccer! kecoh xiaa, the ones that i say cute2 smuer jady fierce2. syaza kene bully ngn budak umur 6 tahun xiaa =(( nana, you noe what i mean..

soccer best! but i wore skirt, so im not good. lol. tapy kcian abg ahcap, dier mcm maen sorang. haha, den nana lagy semangat maen bola ngn tissue2 la, mcm2 dier pigangg. lol. soon after, boi NS (arkidd) came! niceeee^^ we slack at void deck, play cards and GOSSIP! (chey taqla) den taq tawue, suddenly bdk 440 dtg, lol kte da stand by naq cari gado. AAHAAHA. (joke!) k den, we make a move at 10pm. bus-ed home wit nana^^

AHH, THANKS FOR THE DAY YOU GUYSSSS!

syg korang ^^ hope ue like my gifts! tee hee (:

reached home, bathe and get changed. kaki maseh saket xia maen bolaaa!

omgomg, den as usual otp wit bf. and syaza (again) tertido smpai lupe naq update blog. bgos!

sorry again dearest. ily.

dear x,

why are ue doing this to me.? why must ue come back and say those things to me. i still feel a guilt in leaving you. but things change. please move on for the better. you said i am a good gf and im the best you ever had. im surprised you said that yet i think you got it wrong, im the worst you mean. cant you see? stop miss calling me, i know its hard fer you but you gotta try..

2009-11-22T15:36:00.002+08:00

IM LAZY TO UPLOAD PICHAAAAAAAAAS !

gosh, sorry D:

Anyways, wishing my dearest bestie a

HAPPY SWEET EIGHTEEN-TH BIRTHDAY!

FIZAH LULLABY (=

may you bless with happiness and wealth sweets.

ahh, imy la fizah! bile lagy nih naq meet? anways, kamu stay pretty k! hearts yeh!

2009-11-22T12:08:00.006+08:00

AHH, finally new blogskin.

puas hati ciket. tmrw skul eyk? hahas, still in my holiday mood. i need to catch up wit ma studies, exams are coming! drop dead. talking about yesterday, i spent the whole day wit bf. gahh, i miss him alot alot! kays, so i share wit him bout my one week holiday at void deck. talk2 and i gave him my surprise! wee :D dier suke! den we went to compass point. thought wanna eat kfc, den i remembered! i forgot to bring my money! oh mahn, kecoh! we walked back to my place. reached home, arnolds da dtg! ape lagy, syaza bawak turon ayam and me and bf ate at void deck. wahh, first time cey mkn ayam pat bwah blok. dala taqde tampat cuci tangan! lol. terpakse gy compass cuci tngan. den den we proceed to library. i want to read books. while walking, bf suddenly remembered that he left my gifts at the void deck. watta? kecoh! but we dont care, we still proceed to find books at library. no intersting books, so we left. and we walk back to the void deck, hoping the gifts were still there. and BOOM! it was still there, but theres banglas siting right next to it. lol. so we slack2 at another void deck. syaza kene geletek terok cey! boo hoo. =(

but still i love him (: heee, so den we proceed to 7 eleven, buy drinks den i fetch him to bus stop. den home sweet home. tired liao. last night online and chat with syawal! hahaa, imy la fren (: den otp wit bf. syaza tertido. bgos! hahas, sorry dear. =(

ahh, upload pichas at facebook is uber lagging and slow..

2009-11-21T09:39:00.010+08:00

BACK BACK BACK ON TRACK.

syaza pixie is officially in spore now. lol? now you may contact me if you want to. whoever misses me, what you waiting for? lets meet! ahh, weird feeling. when i reach aus, i swear i miss spore. but when i reached back spore, now i missing australia. cool pa? so anyways, here are the summary of the plans from tuesday till yesterday (friday).

TUESDAY- MOVIEWORLD
WEDNESDAY- SEAWORLD
THURSDAY- DREAMWORLD
FRIDAY- PARADISE FARM

ahh, i love em all. funn funn funn! yes, i enjoyed myself. i enjoyed my holiday! ill post up some pictures soon! but most pictures will be posted on my facebook. so check em out! ^^ anyways, among all i prefer dreamworld cause its just the best! more dangerous rides and more xcitement! tee hee :DD so just now reached changi airport at 8am. taxi-ed home and bathe. later, meeting bf (who else) haha! he miss me alot and i miss him so much. haha! kecoh? kk, he coming down to sengkang and we gonna just slack here and talk talk ^^ tee hee! i have a surprise for him! hope he loves it (: okay gotta go.. sorry bout that! (opps..da terbawak) lol!

TAGS REPLIES

amyy- hees! yeahh darla, best!! should go visit there! no regrets ^^

Maria- oh yes babe! sumpah gereeekk! after 9 years, we visited australia again! woo :DD

DyRawr- otey twinnie! will relink soon^^ oh, imyy xia!

dear (l)- heee, takot la cey! tapy cute! sowie i lupe naq bwk baleqq. hahas! imysm, swear.

solehin- best uhr best uhr best uhr! rugi uh taq ikot! haha, maen2 jehr (:

NISAA- awhhh. yes, mee too! will be sooo looking forward to mit ya and e rest!! ahh, got alot of stuffs i bought for you guys! LOVES!

SHIRLEY- bby! no worries, im backkk^^ hees! dont sad liao k. misses yeh! see ya real soon k! LOVES^^

2009-11-16T15:26:00.007+08:00

so now, im currently using my mum's laptop. yeah yeahh, just had some free time so decided to post something.. anyways, i just got back from two trips. woo! best! first, wake up super early! 6am. if spore, 4am (k, taq perlu). so bathe, get changed and off to mud crab fishing. whoa, long journey can sleep. reached and we board the cruise. so the first activity, we did some cathing of baby crabs. cool shit. me and family, we caught quite a few. next activity, we caught some giant mud crabs. awes! they taught more about these giant crabs, etc. next one, we did some fishingg! kecoh, adeqku dpt tangkap 2 ikan dowh!. oh oh, the best activity, we feed the seagulls and some ??? (forgot e name). last but not least, everyone had crabs for lunch. EXCEPT ME (cause you know i cant) haish. mukehr bored cey ngok org mkn syiok2. geramm! haha.

k after this trip, we went to the tropical fruit farm. there, we had this fruit show and toured around the fruit farm. ohoh, we even visited the kangaroos! ahh, tu paleng best! syaza takot, but still i get to feed them using my hands. AHAHAA! kecoh, pekik2! heee(: freaking cuteeeeee, swear! hahas, syaza kalo naq naq bawak baleq cey! hees. k after which we proceed back. did a lil shopping and long journey back home. pat dlm van tidooooooooo!

so yeah, now at apartment and im bored. dont know what to do. checked my hotmail and whoaa, bf send me a lots of stufffs. hahas! miss him laa! ^^ not forgeting all my mates too. was thinking, hows school eyk? hmm. ahh, i miss school lahr. insyallah syaza ley catch up on my studies once i reached back home. anyways, yesterday night i cant sleep. syaza denga doa yasin teros terido. heees! k den, tmrw will update moreee if i got the time aye.

TMRW PLANS, MOVIE WORLD !

AWESOMEEE (^.^)

roller coaster here i come!

2009-11-15T18:34:00.004+08:00

ellohs teman-teman!

right now, im currently bored. so this is my chance to post something. yes, now im in australia, brisbane. its 6.36pm in spore but here, its 8.36pm. its already dark. lol? so i received tons of messages from bf and friends when i reached the australia custom. hahas, kecoh? den den got alot of missed calls. you guys may call me if you want to (: if you miss me lahr. kay jokeee! anyways, just now went to cruise and did some shopping! best ^^

here, it was freezing. but when the sun comes, its supaa hot! mix weather uhr. lol. oh, im getting way darker. maybe after this going to the beach. go the the beach at night? hell yeah! kk gtg, if got time ill update moreee! pictures upload soon! ahh,

i miss someone very2 much!

saw alot of hawt skater dudes !

(MEOWW)

2009-11-13T22:43:00.009+08:00

OKAY, i cant believe im saying this right now. but im so gona say this, farewell to all of you readers of this blog. im leaving this blog dead for a week. so dont you expect any updates till the 21st. will be flying to australia! (best) be jealous. lol. yes, for one whole week. of course will miss my friends, bf, etc. insyallah syaza kirim kan nougurt and kangaroo otey! ^^ tee hee! have to start packing now. so heres some few updates about yesterday and today. so gonna be my last post. k dah.

wednesday, after school went to awie's crib. play GTA IV and MIDNIGHT CLUB. best dowh! k afterwhich met wan bebek. chey, rebond rambot kape boi? hahas, gonna miss my laughing gas when im gone. haiya! k, we slack2 at tamp one rooftop and met eeza syg. time shows ?? and we proceed home la.

thursday(yesterday), after school went watch movie, 2012 with bf at e hub. whoa, movie was 2+ hours. kay, had funn wit bf and im glad i get to spent my last moments with him before i go. oh oh, finally i got the card that bf's lil sis(pri 2) made for me! awhhh, cute la kan card tuhh, sumpah! it was a farewell card and a birthday card. shes the first to wish me, how sweeet! awhh (im touched). so yeah, i cried the whole day. idk why. im just sad. (tears) =(

friday(just now), after school home-d straight. out met eeza syg and last minute she followed us jamming! woo :D love audience! kay fake. hees, was uber nervous for jamming just now. so yeahh, just now we covered all the 5 new songs. (not good enuf;escape e fate, you belong with me;TaylorS, abt a girl;the academy is, devotion&desires;bayside, since you been gone;kelly c) among all, i prefer since you been gone. AHAHAH! nicee. jam from 4 to 6pm. tired~ so yeh, bandmates comment that im the best! (cheyy, taq kembang uhs) lol. took alot of band photos. check em out on facebook! oh, finally get to meet nunu darlaaa! omg, rindu diehr dowh! loves!

ANYWAYS, GOOD NEWS! take note dear fellow gig freaks..

MIDLIFE PARODY(my band) WILL BE PERFORMING ON STAGE
VENUE : ODIO CRIB
TIME: NOT SURE
DATE: 29TH NOV

okay, tickets will be selling soon! wooo :DD excited much? (damn right) pls do come and support!

(^__________^)

2009-11-10T18:55:00.012+08:00

MEOWWWWWWWWWWW~

makk, nih pompan private blog da knape! oh, bnyak uninvited readers and spammers eyk? awhh, kcian la eyyhk! haha. kk syaza pham, tee hee! so monday, school as per normal den slack at expo wit mates. kecoh. girls talk. den bus-ed home from changi airport. study for test and otp wit bf & eeza till late night. den syaza tertido! bgos.

just now, wake up early and went to skul alone. reached class and NO one was there. bgos. check2 pat warehouse. gahh, sempat jgak ameq attendence. take attendence den had breakfast at cafe 2. study study study for test. stress. had our test and i find it OKAY (: alhamdulilah ! k after test, we proceed to tamp and slack. nisa had her interview at FA and off we slack at tamp-one rooftop. awie joined us soon after. kecoh! k den we decided to make a move at 5.30pm.

and otw to bus stop (walking wit awie) , I cant stop laughing xioo! he make me laugh like @#%^@%&*%#%#^ !! hahah, sumpah kecoh! mulot diehr i tell you, omg kutok org numbo satu siah awie. kn kn kn? :DDD ahh, k diam.

reached home, adeq sedare kesayangan ku adehr! farhan! wooo, baek! so layan diehr kejap. best. one part, syaza bukak lagu barney yg 'i love you, you love me'. diehr hug syaza la cehy! and den he kiss me pat pipi. (awhhhh, sweeet pah!) heeeeeeee :DD

HAPPY SUWEET SIXTEEN-TH BIRTHDAY

to wan bebek velcom !

baeq uh wan, da tue eyk diehr!. aiseyy. taqle angs. hees. may you blessed with happiness and wealth eyhhk boi. kk, enjoy yr special day k (hrp lu kene sabo) hees! k dah.

2009-11-09T19:19:00.004+08:00

jom countdown! 4 more days ...

kay, rika's pit at east coast park on sunday was best! fun! kecoh! gerek! what else? just loved it. i enjoyed myself. letmme just summarise and let da pichas to the talkin aye!

12.30pm, met bf at tamp and train-ed to eunos. met the rest (nisa, aida, yani&bf, khai, shirley, nadia) there. we then bus-ed down to ecp. reached the pit, and no one was there. ahah! rika was late. weather was supa hot. k den me and bf went to bk bought some drinks and food. afterwhich, we went to the beach. (awhhh, so sweet!) hehe, bf bully me =( he wanna throw me to the sea siah! hees, den we play the sand...

soon, eeza came. and more others. slack at bk, play cards etc still waiting for bday gal to come. check2 4 plus aru sampai! haha, k went back to pit and woaaah, ramai pehr! there were gab, yan, fiqah&friends, zaza&bf, apen&friend, etc. kecohhh! hehe, ape lagy start uhr bbq! yum yum yum! ^.^ wish bday girl happy bday! soon, bf have to leave cause of soccer =( fetch him till e tunnel and back to the pit. sumbat lagy makanan smpai boncet! haha, slack slack and talk crap. k soon, one by one left. haiyaa. left me, eeza, shirley, aida, apen and the guys. we stayed till 8pm. soryy bday gal, hope she enjoyed herself! heees cause i do! (:

k, bus-ed to bedok inter and took 87 back to seng kang wit eeza. we slacked at void deck till 10.30pm and proceed home. tired siahhhh~ woo! thanks for the day you guys! muacks! syg smuenyehr! im so darn happy, cause i get to spent those memorable times wit the ones i love before i went off to australia. (:

2009-11-07T22:41:00.008+08:00

saturday, whole day at home. do what? did some house chores den watch the movie seniority row online. boredom! actually got friends want to come over, but im tired and too lazy to even entertain my own siblings. ape lagy dorang? sorry yeh! k den, parents went out and only left me and my siblings. i kept thinking about tmrw. going to east coast park for rika's bday pit! ahhh, went there wit my ite mates and im gonna bring along bf! yey! cant wait to spent my day wit all of them! confirm best ^-^

aye, dont know what to wear tmrw. gosh. =( help?

so anyways, next saturday will be MIA-ing to australiaaa! lol.
im excited! like 4852541647835!! gonna shop shop shop over there! weeee :DDDD